Meant to be.

Acceptance

⚠️TW- reference to ED
            - discussion of being underweight and      malnutrition
            -Emetophobia
Addison's POV

Arizona and I sat for a bit just enjoying each others company, we've talked about dating before but never really agreed to try but I've always wanted to she's the most amazing woman and she understands everything so well. We've both been through so much and we know how to support each other.
Eventually I can feel Meredith getting slightly restless on my lap, I look at Arizona who has also noticed Meredith starting to wake up.
"I'm going to go make some food?" Arizona suggested
"Sounds good, I'll sit here with her and let her wake up a bit, give me a yell when you ready and I'll bring her in." I replied, smiling down at Mer in my lap.
As Arizona stood up Meredith started to stir more.

Meredith's POV
I started the wake up and I could feel the someone's hand resting on my head, at first I way confused then I remembered what happened, but a part of me doesn't want to move. The hand on my head who I have not yet identified as belong to Addison or Arizona is gently brushing her fingers through my hair. Despite the millions of thought rushing through my head, I feel calm.
"Mer?" Addies voice asked softly,
"Mmh" I say in response still waking up.
"Are you comfortable?" She asks, at first my mind things she's joking, annoyed at me for laying on her but I can tell in her tone she's genuine.
"Yes," I reply softly, I really can't explain it but I feel safe here in her arms.

Addisons POV
I can tell Meredith awake she's responding to me but she doesn't seem to want to move, not that I mind. She goes to sit up and I gently rest my hand on her shoulder.
"You can stay there is you want," I say softly, she thinks for a moment before returning to her laying position.
"Ari is making us some food." I explain, but regret it immediately as she tenses up at the word food.
"Hey do you want to watch some TV?" I ask trying to distract her from the food.
"Sure" she says quietly,
"What do you want to watch?" I ask hoping it works to distract her.
"I don't know, I don't watch much" She replies,
"What about when you were little what did you watch?" I ask, even though we haven't technically started the age regression with Meredith, I can see times when she is in a slightly younger headspace and I want to try and encourage her to feel comfortable.
"I didn't really watch tv when I was a kid." She replies quite matter a fact.
"What do you mean? What was your favourite movie growing up?" I ask,
"I wasn't allowed to watch tv, thatcher left when I was three and half and after that I just had to go to the hospital with my mum." Meredith explains, and I feel so bad. I would understand not having a tv or your kids watching very little tv but not even having a favourite movie, Ellis obviously never let her be a child.
"Ok then we can watch my favourite from when I was a kid," I say, going to stand up to put the dvd in,
"Mmh" Meredith moans as I try and move, whimpering slightly at the lost of touch.
"Sh sh, I'm just putting the dvd in then I'll be right back." I say moving quickly, before sitting back down next to her and starting the movie.
"Have you ever seen Beauty and the Beast?" I ask gently running my hand through her hair. She doesn't respond but just shakes her head no. Poor girl, I truely don't think Ellis ever let her have a childhood.
We sat in silence for most of the movie, except for an occasional gasp from Meredith, I kept looking down at her face while she watched it and it was adorable. The movie was about half way through when I heard Ari calling from the kitchen.
"Addie it's ready." She called sticking her head back into the lounge.
"Come on Meredith," I say gently, putting hand under her to help her sit up,
"No I don't want to miss any of the movie." She whined,
"It's ok we can pause it and come straight back." I explain holding back laughter, I'm glad she's enjoying it. I also definitely think once she accepts it that age regression will work well for Meredith.
"Promise?" she asked looking up at me with big for eyes,
"I promise," I say smiling,
"Ok" she said sitting up, before following me into the kitchen.

Meredith's POV
I didn't want to leave the movie it was really good, but Addie promised we would go back. As I followed her I could feel my stomach forming knots, Ari had made some pasta, it wasn't anything fancy just plain pasta and some sauce. As I looked though I noticed she'd left the pasta and sauce separate.
"Take a seat Meredith." Addie says sitting down in one of the chairs.
"Thank you so much Ari this looks delicious." She continues as Arizona places glasses on the table.
"No worries, Meredith I've made some plain pasta, and that's a tomato pasta sauce, but if you want something else on your pasta I'm sure I can find something." Arizona says sitting on the other side of me. I can smell the pasta and it actually looks quite nice. I take a small serving of it in my bowel.

Arizona's POV
I decided just to make something simple, if my worries are correct Meredith won't want to eat anything too heavy or complicated. That's also why I kept the pasta and sauce separate.
I smile as she takes a small serving of the pasta, but don't say anything I don't want her to realise I'm watching what she's eating.

Meredith's POV
I don't really want any of the sauce but I don't want plain pasta either, Arizona did say she might have something else to put on the pasta.
"Um... is the um... you mentioned...um... I don't really like...um tomato's...um" I stutter not wanting to be rude, Arizona put a lot of effort into this meal but I can see the chunks of tomato skin in the sauce and it's making me feel nauseous.
"That's ok if you don't like tomato's we've got pesto in the fridge or.." Arizona said smiling standing up the check the fridge, "or if you want you can just put a bit of olive oil on the pasta with some salt" she suggests.
"Yes please." I say smiling, that sounds good. The pasta actually looks really nice.

Addison's POV
I'm so glad Meredith seems to be eating, she hasn't eaten a lot but she's taking a few bites. My and Arizona where talking trying not make sure Meredith wasn't focused on the food, but suddenly Meredith's face changed and she frantically stood up running towards the bathroom.
I was so confused but followed quickly, just in time to grab her hair as she started to throw up. Arizona was right behind me and started to gently rub Meredith's back. Neither of us said anything until she'd finish throwing up, it was clear from the look on her face this wasn't something she had done on purpose she looked disappointed and scared.
"Hey Meredith?" Arizona asked, and Meredith just looked at her. "Sweetheart when was the last time you ate something?" She asked, I was confused we'd seen her eat breakfast but then I realised we didn't actually we just saw some of it had disappeared off the plate.
At the questions Meredith shrank into herself, resting her head on her knees.
"Honey, we won't judge you or be angry or any we are just worried about you." I said gently resting my hand on her shoulder. She looked up at me eyes red and puffy, then looked at Ari before mumbling something I couldn't quite make out.
"Sorry my love, I couldn't quite hear that, say it again?" Arizona cooed,
"Last week" she says, her voice cracking as I saw her lip quiver and the tears threatening to roll down her face again.
"Oh sweetheart," I coo, "I thought you ate French toast this morning." I ask gently,
Then watch as Meredith reaches into her pocket and pulls out a serviette, and passes it to me. Inside is squashed French toast that she must have hidden this morning.
"Oh Mer, sweetheart come here." Ari says beside me holding out her arms. Meredith had wedged herself in between the toilet and the wall, it's too skinny for either of us to get to her. Meredith comes towards us though, standing up and hugging Ari.
"Can I take you back the lounge?" Ari asks and Meredith nods, letting Ari pick her up.
"Here Ari let me take her, you carried her last time." I said taking Meredith into my own arms, and walking to the lounge.
Once we were seated Meredith looked between both Ari and I knowing that we would have to talk about it.
"Mer what was the last thing you ate?" I asked, gently holding her hand,
"I ate an apple a week ago," she said softly,
"And before that?" Ari asked
"I ate a saltine, a week before that." Meredith replied,
"So this has been going on a while? You don't eat?" I ask and she nods tears now gently rolling down her cheek.
"Oh come here," I say pulling her into my lap.
"It's ok. We will get past this ok?" Ari says smiling, resting her hand on Meredith back. Before smiling at me.
"Should we try it now?" She mouths so Meredith doesn't hear.
I think for a moment before nodding.

Authors Note
Hope you enjoyed.
It's a bit of a longer chapter so I hope you enjoyed that.
Please leave comments and ideas for this story and also for any new ideas you would want to read a story about as I should be starting a new story soon.