Meant to be.

Pancakes

Addison's POV

I'm the first to wake up, I smile as I see the sun streaming in through Ari's window, perfectly falling over both her and Mer's face, they look so beautiful. I just lay there for a moment, enjoying the peace before I decide to get up and make some breakfast for all of us, or at least Ari and I, Mer might just have some milk it seemed to go down easy yesterday and at this point anything in her stomach is better than nothing,

After a while I hear some murmurs coming from the bedroom,

Merediths POV

I start to wake up and I can feel something warm against me, it takes me a moment to become aware but once I do I pull away I was cuddled into Arizona, and I'm sucking my thumb, as I sit there thinking I suddenly remember last night, I think I must have regressed that's what Zona and Addie called it right, I don't know what to do, I'm wearing pjs which means they obviously helped me get changed that means they saw my cuts on my legs, but Addie said I shouldn't be ashamed of them, and showed me her scars but it's still so hard, I can feel it within me the urge to just move back closer to Zona cuddle into her but I also don't want to some part of my mind is still telling me I'm weak for doing this weak for not being able to cope with life like everyone else.

"Meredith honey, are you awake?" I hear Addie ask from the door way distracting me from my thoughts,
"Yeah," I reply without even realising I'm speaking,
"Good morning, how are you feeling?" She asked entering the room and sitting down next to me,
I don't really know how to answer, I think I liked last night, I liked being able to let them take care of me,
"I'm fine." I say, although at this point I don't really know what that means I say it so much,

Addisons POV

I think we are going to need to ban the word fine from Meredith's vocabulary, that girls uses it so much, the talking must have awoken Ari as she started to wake in the bed beside Meredith,
"Good morning sleep head," I said smiling, mornings where never really Ari's strong suit, she was fine once she got up in fact once she started got out of bed she was bubbly but getting her awake was another question,
"Morning," she replied stretching, her hair glistening in the sun, "how did you sleep Meredith?" She asked sitting up in the bed,

"Fine." Meredith answered, oh that word again, I seriously think I'm going to band that word,
"Is that pancakes I smell?" Arizona asked smiling,
"Yes" I reply laughing, another thing about Arizona she loves her breakfast, "Meredith you feel like some pancakes?" I ask smiling at her,
She doesn't say anything just shrugs,
"Ok well let's at least go into the kitchen, do you want some help getting dressed?" I ask, spending all day in her pjs isn't going to help Meredith she doesn't need to put anything fancy on just some leggings and a hoodie, but getting changed is a good way to help her set a routine and routine is a step in the right direction,
"Um.." she seems to hesitate,
"It's ok, we want you to feel comfortable, how did you feel after regressing last night," Arizona asked resting her hand on Meredith shoulder, Meredith seemed to be thinking it through but I could see her soften under Arizona hand,
"I don't know, I think I liked it," she answered eventually,
"Ok, do you want to try again today?" Arizona asked,
I could see Meredith's mind ticking,
"I'm not sure," she answered eventually, and I am so glad, it seems silly I know but she is being honest with us she isn't trying to hide it's such as good thing she trusts us,
"That's perfectly fine, Mer, how about you let us help you get changed, you don't have to regress but just let us help you." Arizona says and I nod,
"Ok" Meredith's replies it's not much but I can tell she's genuine
"Good girl, sit with Zona ok, I'll go get you some clothes," I say, quickly ducking into the other room to get her clothes,

Once we are all dressed, we make our way into the kitchen, Meredith isn't regressed but she still seems to be comfortable, and calm,
"Oh blueberry pancakes, my favourite," Arizona cheers as she sees the stack of pancakes

Meredith's POV

I wasn't sure about the pancakes when Addie mentioned them in the bedroom but now I see that have blueberries in them I can't, no definitely not,
The idea makes me feel nauseous,
"Meredith, would you like some pancakes?" Addie asks, but I don't respond, I can't, I'll be a burden if I say no, Addie got up early to make them,
"You don't have to, I thought maybe you might like some warm milk?" Addie suggests,

Arizona POV

I can Meredith's face change slightly when Addie suggests warm milk, her face softens,
"Honey, would you like some warm milk in your cup," I ask, standing up, "would bug like some milk?" I prompt watching Meredith's gave soften more,
"Wes pwease," she says, letting herself slips
"Ok, baby, I'll get that for you go sit with Ari," Addison says smiling as I sit down with Meredith,
"Addwie?" Meredith asks as we sit down "I don't wike, blueberries I have to eat pancakes?"
"No baby girl of course not," Addie says, "here you go here's your milk, drink that while Ari and I have some breakfast."
Addie said sitting down with us,
"Ok, but, I be in trouble for not eating?" Meredith asked and my heart sinks,
"No baby girl, I would like you to try and eat something but it doesn't have to be the pancakes, drink your milk then we can discuss it," I say smiling,
"Ok," Meredith says, starting to drink her milk,
We all sit in silence for a bit, not an awkward silence more of a peaceful one,
"When I go see my mum again, she said I supp suppo supowe to see her everyday, and I not see her in ages she be angry" Meredith asked innocently, but both mine and Addies hearts stop for a moment,
"Um.. how about we discuss that later," Addison answers before I can get my thoughts together,
"Ok, me all done my with my milk" Meredith's says smiling, "me should eat some breakfast?"

Authors Note

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