Marjoreece Oneshots

Christmas

TW: grief/talks of grief/loss

(Marjorie's pov)

"I miss him a lot, especially at this time of the year," I tell Autumn.
"I get it, I know how it feels in a way. I mean not fully, I grieve someone still alive, I can't imagine the pain for you," Autumn softly says, placing her hand on my arm.
"I mean, I feel silly sometimes, he died when I was little, so quite a while ago, which makes it feel silly that I grieve so much as if he passed not too long ago. I know I shouldn't, but it feels that way sometimes," I open up to her.
"It's okay to feel that. He's still your dad, and that's not going to change the fact that you will still grieve him for possibly the rest of your life Marj," she comforts.
"I know, I just wish I could be more open about this, not only when I'm drunk," I sort of giggle at the end.
"You are open with Reece though?"
"No, I wish. Well not about this, I'm too scared if I say anything, it'll trigger the thoughts of his mum, and I don't wanna put him through that. I love him, but I can't," I tell her.
"I get that. As much as I want the openness of you, you are way too drunk. I need to call Reece and Winter, so we can get home," she tells me, and I nod.
"Call the boys," I giggle, taking another sip of my drink.

*

"Aut?" Winter calls out, and Autumn raises her head, waving them over.
"Hi my love, I think it's time someone gets home, and I've not had enough to be drunk but too much to drive," Autumn informs Winter and Reece, while I just giggle. I can't help it, alcohol has a serious effect on me.
"Okay, come on then Marjorie," Reece says, walking over to me and lifting one of my arms over his neck. He slides his around my waist and pulls me off the chair.

(Reece's pov)

"Woah. I have a boyfriend, watch where you're touching me," she slurs her words at me, trying to fight against me.
"Okay. I am your boyfriend silly," I tell her and she opens her eyes wide at me.
"What? No way! Someone as gorgeous as you, with your perfect blond hair and bright blue eyes, wanted me? I must be in heaven or dreaming," she giggles at me.
"Definitely not dreaming gorgeous, let's get you home," I tell her and she laughs even more at the nickname.
"Okay, back to your place, or mine?"
"Our place, our home we share," I tell her, shaking my head.
"Oooh let's go," she starts to walk, but her legs are weak, and she can't walk straight or hold herself up, struggling even with my help.

"Winter," I call out, and he walks over to her other side, holding her the same way I am.
"Ooooh two men. I'm getting lucky tonight, Aut two men are after me tonight," she giggles, softly hiccuping.
"Okay Marj. Let's just get you to the car," Aut says, leaving money on the table and walking in front of us, leading the way.
We carry her to the car, and get her settled in the front passenger seat, strapping her in and shutting the door.
"Thanks for your help guys. She hasn't been this drunk in a while, she's never let it get this bad," I say to Autumn and Winter.
"Look after her Reece. I won't say anything more, but there is something not right with her at the moment," Autumn says, before walking off. I say my goodbyes to Winter, before he follows Autumn and I climb into the car.

"You took a while Reecey," Marjorie says, leaning over to me.
"Sorry just saying goodbye, let's get you home," I kiss her forehead, gently pushing her back over into her seat, before strapping myself in and pulling out the car park.

*

Once I got us safely home, I run around to her side of the car and pick her up out of it, carrying her into the house.
"You are so strong," she giggles, ruffling her hands through my hair.
"Thank you, let's get you settled up in bed now love," I tell her, carrying her upstairs.
"Okay," she just hums.
I lay her down on the bed, and she snuggles right up into it, letting out a content sigh.

"Before you get comfy, I need to get you out of this," I tell her, hearing her groan, "I know, it'll only be quick.
"Fine," she huffs upsettingly.
I grab a pair of her lightest pjs, and walking back to her. I slowly undress her out of her work clothes, and get her into pjs.
"Thank you handsome," she mumbles, now fully changed, she snuggles back into her pillow.
"No problem love," I reply, climbing into bed next to her.
She snuggles into my side, making herself comfortable.

"Christmas isn't felling like christmas this year," she says.
"What do you mean Marj?" I look down at her, to see her staring up at me.
"The holiday grief is what I mean. I miss my dad a lot this year Reece. I really miss him, and it feels bigger and heavier than normal. I miss him, but I can't get him back. And drinking usually helps stop the feeling, but tonight it didn't, its just made my buried feelings come up to the surface," she says to me, sitting up as she starts crying, trying to get her breathing back in control.

"Baby breathe. I'm here, breathe for me," I sit up with her, pulling one of her hands to rest over my heart, helping her get her breathing back into an even rhythm.
"Good girl," I whisper, kissing the back of her hand.
"I'm sorry Reece. I'm not normally like this, I'm too drunk and letting my feelings out. I shouldn't be, because I don't want to trigger your thoughts about your mum," she says, lying back down on the bed.
"Oh gorgeous," I lay down next to her, and she snuggles back up into my side, "I'm sorry you had to worry about my feelings over yours. Please know you never have to do that, because whatever it is, I want to be able to support you the way you support me, especially this time of year. I can't even imagine the grief you're feeling, and how hard it must be. It may not be the first Christmas without it, but it's still one without him, which is still as hard. You are possibly always going to live with this grief, and it's not linear, you will have ups and downs. And Christmas, it can be the hardest time of the year, a time where it's all about family but you're missing the one person you want most. But I'm here, and I'm not going anywhere okay? I'm staying right by your side, and we can take Christmas as slow or as fast as you want. No rush, just to enjoy it and ride out the grief wave together," I finish my little speech.

She turns her head to look at me, tears in her eyes as she takes some deep breaths.
She breaks down, tears rolling down her cheeks, as she crawls closer into my arms, sobbing into my shoulder.
"I've got you gorgeous," I whisper, stroking her hair, taking her glasses off so she doesn't damage them and placing them on the bedside table next to me.
After a while, her sobs lighten, shifting into sniffles until it goes quieter. I look down and see she has fallen asleep, light snores escaping her lips just then.
"I love you, I'll always protect you."

(Marjorie's pov)

I wake up alone in bed. I thought I had someone with me last night.
"Hello?" I call out, sitting up and no longer recognising the room.
"Marj? You alright?" Autumn responds, and a few seconds later opens the door, poking her head around it.
"Yeah, I thought I fell asleep with someone last night," I say confused, rubbing my head.
"Your drunk ass fell asleep on me," she laughs at me.
"What about...?" I look around confused.
"Oh honey, still dreaming about him?" she sits down on the edge of my bed.
"Dream?"
"Yes dream. He left three moths ago, so I'm not surprised you still miss him," she rubs her hand over my leg.
"He left? He said he never would," I feel tears in my eyes.

"The alcohol clearly has made you forget, he did honey. He's an idiot, and I will never understand why, or forgive him," Autumn says, moving further up the bed to me.
"I hate him, why would he leave me?! Am I not enough?!" I yell, not meaning to yell at her, just wanting to yell and scream until I can't anymore.
"I know, I know," she says, pulling me into her. I try to fight her off, too angry and upset, but she tightens her grip on me. I eventually give up, collapsing into her arms as I sob.
"I've got you. We will get through this."
"I can't do Christmas this year, I can't!" I sob into her.
"It's okay. We won't do Christmas this year. We will get through this together, even if it means we skip the holidays this year," she says softly, rubbing my back.

A/N: Hi lovelies. I wanted to get a sort of Christmas themed one out, but as I'm really not feeling it this year because of grief and it being the first Christmas, I decided that this one was more fitting for me. If you are struggling this Christmas, just know you are not alone, your grief is valid no matter what and you'll get through it and it can get easier.
This chapter was a bit shorter as I wasn't too sure what I wanted to happen, and I wanted to get a sort of Christmas themed one out.
I won't be updating over the next few days as I'm spending most of it with family, and getting through this holiday grief as best as I can.
I wish you all a very merry Christmas, and I shall see you all soon, love you all and look after yourselves <33333