Broken (Timids)

Worry

Shane's PoV
Drew ran out of the room as soon as Kier had said that, not wanting us all to see him cry. Seconds later, I heard the sound of the heavy bathroom door locking and I sighed loudly. It could take me hours to pry him out of there or even get him to unlock the door to let me in. Just when I had began to calm him down enough to stop crying and face the others, we were back to square one again. I turned to glare at Kier, accusing him just by looking at him with my eyes. Usually, I avoided arguments with my best friends at all costs and forgave any mistakes they made quickly so it didn't get dragged out into large debate, but I was willing to make an exception here. Drew was absolutely distraught and as soon as the tears sprang from his eyes and his upset face broke into a thousand tiny pieces, my big brother instinct kicked in. I hated to see him cry so much it actually felt like my heart was being ripped into a thousand tiny shreds.

"How insensitive can you be?" I snarled at Kier, who looked like he wanted the carpeted floor to swallow him whole. At least he looked guilty for what he did, which was a start. Kier tended to say stupid things when he was mad or upset, not really thinking about it before he blurted the words out. He didn't mean to hurt Drew, and that was the very reason I couldn't stay mad at him for to long.

" I didn't know he was standing there, I swear" Kier cried, truth shining deep in his irises. He looked as though he was going to burst into tears himself. We all knew how sensitive Drew was and what he had been through so we all tried our hardest not to hurt him, intentionally or otherwise. Even though Kier was the youngest, Drew was definitely the most babied of the group, and he was the one we all seemed to worry about the most,

" Kier, you know how sensitive he is" I sighed, sinking onto the sofa next to Laurence. I pulled my knees up to my chest and rested my chin lazily on them. I just wanted to be able to make him feel better. I had never been aware of how much he hurts inside until he burst into tears today. I couldn't help but wonder how long he had felt this way. Had he been holding it in all this time? Or had he just had an emotional day? Either way, I needed to sort it out and fast.

I looked up from my odd socks to see both Kier and Laurence staring at me intently. I realised, they probably wanted to know what had happened with Drew today. They must have been able to see the tear marks on his face when we first walked in.

" Shane, is he alright?" Laurence questioned and I held in a snide remark about what Kier had said. Of course he wasn't okay. I would have loved to have explained the situation to them and get their advice but the words I had previously spoken to Drew ran in my head. I had promised not to tell and if he thought he couldn't trust me, he would never tell me anything ever again.

" he's just a little emotional today" I mumbled, trying to avoid the subject of what caused his outbreak. He missed his parents, that much was clear, but I couldn't help but feel like he was hiding something from me.

" are you okay Shane?" Kier asked, peering at me carefully, although he was analysing my face for any traces of hurt. This question surprised me a little, wasn't it Drew we should be talking about here, to check whether he was okay, not me. I furrowed my brow in confusion.

" it's just you look really tired and upset" Kier elaborated, catching on at my confused expression. I guess I was a little tired from all the nights I was woken up by Drew's nightmares, but I didn't mind to much about that. I would rather he woke me up than crying by himself in the dark. That way, I could protect him from all his demons. And I definetly was upset, simply because Drew was upset. We were that close, you couldn't upset one timid without upsetting the other.

I considered telling the others I was fine but I doubt they would have believed me.

" I'm just worried about Drew guys" I admitted.

Drews PoV
I ran straight out of the room and just like always, the bathroom was destination. I relaxed a little when the door was successfully bolted and there was nobody who could see my tears. Here, I could cry and cry and cry.

But I didn't feel like crying, I had done enough of that for one day. Instead, raging anger seared through my veins and in my blind rage, I punched the wall, enough for some of the plaster to chip off and my knuckles to start heavily bleeding. I couldn't help but wish the wall was Kier's face.

He was so lucky, why couldn't he see that? He had a loving family that wanted to spend time with him but instead he just threw it back in their faces. I would kill to be able to spend just one last minute with my family, just so I could tell them I loved them and that I was sorry, just to be able to cuddle my mum one last time and feel safe in her warm embrace. Kier had all of that. He could go see his family all he wanted, they only lived around the corner to here. My parents were a lot further away, the graveyard in the town next to ours. Sure, Kier and his parents argued but so does every family. He held grudges for to long, and I know from experience how soul-destroying that could be.

Flashback to the morning of the day Drew's family died
" I hate you" I screamed at Abbie, my older sister. She stood across the living room, glaring at me with her arms folded across her chest. We were having yet another argument because she had stolen my straighteners. It only sounded like a little thing but it escalated quickly. Abbie had a knack for throwing everything I had done wrong in the past ten years back in my face.

" I hate you too, twitch" she screamed back, before running upstairs. But even I wasn't so absorbed in the argument to see the tears leaking from her eyes. She had only wanted to borrow them for one day, for her hairdressing course as hers were broken. Perhaps I was being petty, it wouldn't have killed me to have given her the straighteners. I considered going upstairs and apologising but I decided against it, knowing it would only cause more arguments between us and I wasn't in the mood today. It was like something bad was going to happen...
End of flashback

I shook my head, trying to rid my brain of painful memories. Instead, I leaned against the wall, I had the feeling that they were talking about me

" are you okay Shane?" Kier asked, his words masked a little by the wall. There was a gap of silence before Kier spoke up again. " it's just you look really tired and upset" Kier elaborated.

"I'm just worried about Drew guys" Shane admitted. His words hit me like a punch to the gut. I didn't want him to worry over me, it wasn't fair on him. This was all my fault, I had upset Shane, the one person who I hated hurting the most in the while wide world.

I glanced at my reflection in the mirror.

" you're really gonna get it tonight" I hissed.