Reckless

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I know some of y'all have been waiting for this moment, and I'd feel kinda bad if y'all didn't get to witness it first hand, so let me take y'all back to last night..... When I arrived back in town, I got the call from Renee, and all she said was 'do you wanna feel the baby kick?' Now, on the surface, it seemed like an innocent question but I knew it was way too early for that and it didn't take me long to decode her message. Once I agreed that I'd be there as soon as I could, I made the trip to my house... or what was left of it because I wanted to see the damage firsthand. When I pulled up, I couldn't believe this was the place where I use to lay my head, there was nothing left but a charred frame, I could see straight to the backyard and the smell.... Smelling the smoke seemed to light a fire in my soul... I was going to kill that nigga, there was no doubt in my mind and I was killing him tonight... There would be no waiting... no arguing.... no final words. I was emptying most of the clip in his face and saving one bullet to put in his heart. I thought about going to my parents, but quickly nixed that idea because I knew that would only make things worse. I stood there in shock, and I probably would've stayed there all night if not for the gentle touch and Sincere lacing his fingers through mine.... I felt comforted by his touch, his smell, his presence... but I didn't need that right now, right now I needed the anger that was building in my chest.

"So what do you wanna do?" Sincere asked, and I stood there thinking for a second.

"I wanna see my son..." I said, deciding that it was best if I went to see my parents first, I needed to apologize and let them (really only my dad) know that I was going to handle it. There was something else I needed to do, something that was probably going to get me put on sex restriction for a year, but it needed to be done.

"Coo... Legend sent me the address, so we can stop by there before we go deal with Qwantay." Sincere said, and I nodded, I definitely peeped the fact that he called him Qwantay, that told me just how serious he was about ending this shyt tonight... We arrived at the place where my parents were staying and I was still kinda nervous about going in, if not for Sincere, I probably would've just had them bring Jordan out to me, and took him some place where I could spend some alone time with him... but Sincere gave me strength so I knocked on the door an waited.

"Jordan stop running around like a damn lunatic!" My mom shouted as she opened the door, as soon as my eyes locked with hers, I had to blink back tears because in truth... everything that was happening was my fault. "Stop... whatever you're thinking, we don't blame you...." She said quietly. I didn't get a chance to respond because at the moment Jordan saw me and damn near broke his neck trying to get to me.... correction, he was trying to get to Sincere.

"Uhh is Dad here?" I asked, wanting to get away from my mom before the guilt ate me alive. She pointed to the back and I quickly moved past her, I'd see Jordan later right now he was wrestling with his buddy... I walked into the back where my dad was trying to set up a TV, and I waited until he acknowledged me before speaking.

"The least you could do is offer to help instead of standing there like a goof troop...." My dad said without looking up.

"I mean, usually you don't want help, but I can spare a few minutes...." I said, walking around to check his progress. "So umm..."

"Don't worry about it, the insurance check should help replace some of the stuff... but the memories we made in that house.... I don't know.... Epic and Legend are talking about having it rebuilt but it's not going to be the same." My dad said.

"I'm handling that issue tonight, Renee... she has that person locked up somewhere." I said waiting to see what he thought and for the longest time we just worked in silence. "So what do you think?" I asked.