Thrown Into Trouble

Oh No

Alex's Pov
Tomorrow it will have been a week since I left Blake and Dylan's house. I haven't heard from either of them since I have been gone and I honestly don't know how to feel about it. On one hand I am glad to have the space to think but on the other hand all I can think about is them and if they saw my note and if they didn't did they even notice I was gone or care I was gone? There were a lot of questions and thoughts going around my head about those two. Then add in the random thoughts about my "father" since he called, luckily he actually listened to me and hasn't contacted me since he first called me. At least someone knows how to listen to me and let me talk, I just didn't think that person would be him and that I would even be comparing Blake and Dylan to him and that he would be in the better position then they are. I have compared them in the past because of how great and good Blake and Dylan were and that wasn't odd to me but with him being in a sense above them or better than them about something is very odd and strange to think about after everything he did to me and my mom. I still don't know how to feel about him calling something in me that says there is more to the story I don't know yet so I have no idea what I am going to do about that yet. But as I said Blake and Dylan have mostly been taking up my thoughts which had led to me making some paintings to get my feelings out and the emotions in them are either anger or being hurt or being sad which is accurate for me at the moment on how I have been feeling. Not all of it is paintings though some are just drawings and a lot of them have been drawings of eyes. I love drawing eyes, people say they are the window to the soul and I believe that.

Eyes can show you people's true emotions and give people away when they are lying, it's usually a dead giveaway and not many people can hide their emotions from showing in their eyes but some people manage to figure out how to. Well that or the people around them just don't care enough to look for any reason to question them or believe they aren't telling the truth. I also believe actions speak louder than words which goes along with eyes being the windows to the soul. People can tell you anything but just because they say something doesn't mean they would actually do it or are telling the truth but if they prove it with their actions then you know it's true, that or they are trying really hard for you to believe them so then they can lie to you later on or use you. I have made seven drawings and six paintings since I have gotten here and somehow have done all my school work while still finding time to think about Blake and Dylan even while painting and drawing and doing school work, they just won't leave my head. Five of those drawings are of eyes or an eye and all but one of them are crying and two of them are crying blood. For my other two drawings one is of a hand holding a rose but the thorns cut their hand making it bleed and then the other one is two hands pulling a heart in half. As for the painting, two of them are flowers that are on fire but one is a rose and the other is a dandelion, once is just pure red or well shades of red and some orange so it basically just screams anger considering red is the color connected with being angry.