Livin It Up (Sequel to Make It Last Forever)

Making Amends

Ciara POV

I just finished cleaning up the house and I get a text from J'Shawn.

Papi Jr 😈🔥😂💪🏾: You wanna come over

Me: Why

Papi Jr 😈🔥😂💪🏾: We watching thanksgiving movies!!! Lol

Me: Lol are you 8

Papi Jr 😈🔥😂💪🏾: Childhood memories! Come on you gotta get out the house today

Me: I guess,I'm getting ready

Papi Jr 😈🔥😂💪🏾: See you soon

I switch my pants,put on a hoodie,and sneakers. This November air ain't no joke,I put Zahir's coat on him and grab the baby bag before going outside to the car and strapping him in his car seat. I drive to J'Shawn's house,I try to ignore Nicki cause I know if I talk to her or respond to any of her calls I would probably breakdown and I can't afford to do that. Everyday she texts me saying how she misses me,loves me,she's sorry,and wondering how Zahir's doing. She hurt me to a point I've never been before,I'm hurt,sad,angry,regretful,I'm emotionally fucked up and she keeps doing that to me. I don't know if we'll get back together but nothing's changing my mind about the divorce,next week my lawyer's going over the papers with me and we're setting a court date with the judge. I wouldn't say I hate Nicki,but I have a strong dislike for her right now. I get to J'Shawn's house and knock on the door,he answers with a smile and hugs me.

"We in the basement" He says while taking Zahir out of his car seat

We go in the basement and I sit off on the end of the couch.

"She actually came out the house" Tyla smirks

Shit,I'm surprised I'm not home.

"J'Shawn begged me to come" I chuckle

"Good,cause you was on some depressing last day of life type shit the last two days" Safaree says

"That was a drag" I say

"Eh" He says

I playfully roll my eyes and watch the movie,it was the Charlie Brown thanksgiving special. I feel eyes looking at me and I look in the direction and see it's Nicki's. We make brief eye contact and it's like I got caught in a trance. I do miss her but I can't take that risk yet. I've been meaning to talk to J'Shawn about our relationship,I feel like I never got to really hear how he felt about me breaking up with him and I feel like this would help us move past this little strand of awkwardness left.

"J'Shawn I need to talk to you" I say while standing up

"Ok" He says

We go upstairs in his room and close the door,I take a deep breath and look up at him.

"J'Shawn I'm so sorry" I say

"For what?" He asks

"When I told you I cheated on you with Nicki then broke up with you" I say lowly

"You already apologized for that" He says

"I know but I need to get this off my chest" I say

"Ok,go ahead" He says

"How did you really feel afterwards?" I ask

"I was hurt and upset for a while and wondering what I did wrong,but I realized that we did just drift apart" He says

"You know I don't hurt anybody intentionally,it's sad that it had to end that way and I still feel bad about it and I'm really sorry,it's not even that I feel bad,you were my first love,my first everything,you didn't deserve anything I may have done to you emotionally,now that me and Nicki are getting a divorce I realize how you may've felt,guess it's karma" I say as my eyes water

"Don't think like that" He says

"You know it's true,I'll always love you J'Shawn and I want nothing but the best for you,I really am sincerely sorry about how our relationship ended,It's this one little thing I don't like about Chanel but she's good for you,you need to keep her around" I say

"Thanks Ci,I'll always love you too" He smiles

I smile and we hug,it feels good to get that weight off my shoulders and be able to talk to J'Shawn about anything now. He kisses my cheek and the door opens as he pulls away.

"J'Shawn what the fuck?!" Chanel yells

"It's not what you think" He says

She rolls her eyes and walks out the room. Damn. We follow her out the room,back into the basement and she's pissed.

"Chanel it's not even like that" I say

"What happened?" Christian asks

"I went upstairs to give J'Shawn his phone and I open the door and see them all hugged up and he pulling away from her face" She says

"You kissed J'Shawn?!" Drake says

"No,we were talking,we hugged,and he kissed my cheek that was it" I say

"Well the tension felt very intimate" She says

"We talked about our friendship" J'Shawn says

"You expect me to believe it's just a 'friendship'! Why do you want J'Shawn so bad?!" She asks

I raise my eyebrows and laugh hard as fuck,she can't be serious.

"If I wanted J'Shawn you wouldn't be here" I chuckle

"Been there,done that,I know J'Shawn more than anybody,I still have him wrapped around my finger so calm ya little jumpy ass down and get your facts right" I say

"J'Shawn you gonna let her talk to me like that?" She asks

Now she's soooo offended.

"Yea,you assume shit too much! For your information yes,me and Ciara dated for eight years,none of this wouldn't have happened if you would stop assuming and talk about it,so don't start crying about how I didn't tell you or how she's being disrespectful towards you cause she's not,now if you wanna boss the fuck up and talk to me about what really happened we can" He says while pointing at the door

She rolls her eyes at me while walking past me and I give her the middle finger. She need to calm that attitude all the way down. Besides what just happened I'm glad me and J'Shawn moved past what happened fully and I'm pretty sure our relationship is stronger than ever.

A/N: Ciara and J'Shawn are finally over what happened :) Next update soon!