Twisting Friendship

A Benefit of A Doubt

68. A Benefit of a Doubt..

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Tomoe ran down the hall, his chest pounded until he felt a new sense of sickness come over him, it wasn't the sickness from earlier. No, He felt sick to the stomach right now, Nanami was... Because of him.... She was.

Pregnant...

He choked on the pain in his gut as he ran into the bathroom and tried to choke, but sadly nothing came up so he was up a creek for now. He was screwed, he just wanted his father to hate him! He didn't want a baby! He didn't know how to raise a baby! He was to young himself!

He didn't know how! He felt his stomach turn again as he forced himself to puke. It wasn't a good start on things but he did it anyway, his stomach hurt and he whined slightly. He didn't want to be a father! NO! NO! He couldn't!

He didn't even love her! He only used her to take away some pain! And Now since he didn't protect it.. They were going to be parents! He didn't want to be a father, or a husband or anything else of that manner! He was still having trouble with his own father! How was this supposed to work? He forced himself again and noticed some blood, his eyes widened before he fell back and leaned his head against the wall..

He couldn't keep doing this to himself, It would better to die and leave it all behind, but what would that make him? He'd be the one abandoning the baby and Nanami. He knew he had a mark on his neck.. But he never thought it was a mate mark.

He didn't think they had gone that far, the thought of it all traumatized him. He was shaing at the thought of having a child, How coudl he learnt o love his friend? His best friend? He wanted someone to love him! He didn't want a one night stand to be his destiny.

Tomeo bit his lip, tears welling up in his eyes as he choked and then started to sob weakly. He didn't want this, but he had it coming his way one way or another. A baby, a little child with legs and arms, feeling and hurts.

He was going to go to college, but that was impossible now. His father was going to do more then hate him now, if he found out about the baby he'd get kicked out or disowned in the most horrid way possible.

Tomoe bit his lip and shivered at the thought of this all, he was just a normal teenager a few months ago, now he had a pregnant best friend, and it was his fault. His father and him hated each other and he was now cowering in the bathroom.

The teen bit his lip weakly at the thought, he wanted this all to end.. but he knew if he tried to kill himself it would just be taking the easy way out. It would just end in tears and Inari would probably save him just to beat him and scream at him for being stupid in this type of situation.

Tomoe shifted weakly and stared at his wrist, scared, battered and torn by his own claws. For some reaosn he didn't even want to do it anymore, he didn't want to cut at the moment, no. He just wanted all the pain to drain away and never come back.

He wanted his dad to understand him, and be there for him in the hard times. Tomoe wanted some support in all of this but right now? How could he possibly be in this situation? He was scared, so scared of having a baby; he was scared of his father and he wanted to run and be a different person.

The teen choked weakly, tears in his eyes as he hid his face in his knees, He tried to control his emotions but that was hard to do with the fact that his best friend was pregnant and having his baby. What was he to do with that? The worse thing was the fact that he gave her a mate mark...

And a yoaki can only mark one person, and one person only...

So he was stuck with Nanami, or no one. Never to love unless it was her; and he wasn't sure he could love her. He liked her as a frind but romantically? With the kissing and the marriage and the child bearing? Did he have it in him to love her and make a family with her?