Falling for your Fate

Chapter 27

Lying in Breadon's arms I couldn't help but let my mind wander. Having his arms wrapped around me securely as the sun started to break the horizon I found my mind drifting to the same troubling question. How did I end up here? In the arms of another Alpha, bound to a man that seemed to have a hidden talent for hurting me.

My mind was lost in all that happened since I arrived and every time, I came to the same conclusion. I wasn't weak. A weak person would have given up long ago. A weak person never would have made it to eighteen with the people I had long ago stopped calling my parents. A weak person would have never tried to escape Colby. A weak person would have caved to Koron's brutality.

All I was guilty of was being broken. I wasn't weak, but everything that had made me who I was had been stripped away from me. I wore their words like chainmail. I made them who I was, I gave them that power over me. I had forgotten who I was under their ridicule, or maybe I never knew me in the first place. How could I ever hide behind weakness when I should have been acknowledging that the foundations of who I was had been lost along the way?

Feeling trapped and restricted, I gently pushed myself out of Breadon's arms, the pain in my body relegated to the back of my thoughts as I moved from him. I needed some space, I needed a moment to take a breath, a moment to think clearly.
Silently, I padded across the hardwood floors to the window I had escaped from only last week and I perched myself on the windowsill. My body folded so it could fit in the space as I gazed out the at the lightening sky.

My thoughts were fast and confusing. I was giving myself a headache as I went over all that happened since I had met Breadon and even before and I couldn't help but wonder when the last time I had been truly happy. All I could decide was that allowing the pack to walk all over me and to allow Breadon to get away with what he had done to me was not an option. Joey was right, I was never going to earn anyone's respect hiding from my own shadow.

'Baby,' came a sleep rumpled voice and I cast a glance back at the bed to see Breadon propping himself up on his elbow with a confused look on his face.'What are you doing all the way over there?'

'Thinking,' I answered softly, returning my attention to the brightening sky.

I heard the ruffle of sheets behind me and I could sense him approaching me and immediately my skin began to crawl. I couldn't tell if it was because I wanted him near or I wanted him as far away from me as possible.

When I felt his warm lips press intimately against my neck I pressed myself closer to the window, shrugging away from where he had placed his hands against my waist. I heard him release a tired sigh but I refused to look at him.

'Baby, we need to talk.'

'I have nothing to say,' I answered flatly, hearing him sit with his back against the wall, below the window sill.

'Then just listen, baby girl.'

'No, there is nothing you can say that will make this better.'

Then the room fell into silence, the sun rising high in the sky as the morning seemed to pass us both by.

'Fine,' he grunted after a long time, pushing up from the wall. I could feel his eyes on me but still I refused to look back at him. 'I'll go and get us some breakfast. Have you even been eating?' I shrugged noncommittally before he let out a frustrated breath and his footsteps retreated from the room.

As soon as I heard the click of the door closing I jumped down from the window and limped towards his closet.

Thankfully, he had kept some clothes here for me as well and I quickly slipped on a warm woollen dress, thick tights and sturdy boots. Once I was dressed I moved as quickly as I could back to the window and slid it up, my head snapping back to the door to make sure he didn't come stream rolling through it. I waited a beat before I deemed it safe and quickly climbed back on the window, lowering my body until I was on the same lower window as last time.