The Sweet Desire

Chapter 24

Chapter 24 (Sarah’s POV)

Today is just a typical day.

But there’s something about it that makes it extra-ordinary and special. And that is my feelings for Michael.

Crap. I’m In-love and at the same time I’m screwed.

Habang lumilipas ang mga araw, lalong lumalalim ang nararamdaman ko para sa kanya.  I think I love the guy to bits! Nararamdaman ko na isa siyang mabuting tao. Napaka-sweet pa at sobrang sensible.  He also has a good sense of humor; has a smokin’ hot body. He’s a kind of guy who is sweet enough to make you crave a cuddle and hot enough to make you blush. At higit sa lahat, napakasarap niyang humalik! Fudge!

Wala sa sariling napahawak ako sa mga labi ko. That guy really rocks my world! Aaminin ko, mula noong araw na lokohin ako ni Ethan at mula ng umalis ako papuntang U.S, ni minsan hindi ko sinubukang makipag-mabutihan sa isang lalake. As in, never. Got that?

I shook my head. The guy really drives me crazy. His sweet gentle touch made me want him so badly. The taste of his soft lips, oh dear Lord, whenever his lips were pressed into mine, I feel like I want to explode.

Na para bang minsan gusto ko ng bumigay pero natatabunan ang pakiramdam na iyon ng matinding takot! Takot na baka magaya lang ito sa relasyon namin ni Ethan.  

Sometimes, I feel like I want to give in. I want his body badly.  Shit. Did I really think about that?

  

Just the thought of having sex with him scared the hell out of me. It’s been 5 long years since I had my last sex experience. Masisisi niyo ba ako kung ganito ang maramdaman ko? It’s like I’m good as a virgin! Ni hindi na nga ako sigurado kung alam ko pang gawin ang bagay na iyon. Oh boy, I’m so screwed!

Pero gusto kong maranasan ulit at pakiramdam kung paano magmahal at mahalin. Ngunit ang nais ko’y maibigay ng buong-buo ang pagkatao k okay Michael. Yung walang pag-aalinlangan.

Not only the “Having sex” thing but the whole me of course. I want to be in love again. I want to wake up next to him and see his smile, go out and hang-out with him; or stay in bed together all day.

Gusto ko siyang mahalin ng buong-buo. Michael is a good man. He definitely deserved to be loved back.

Yes, I had an old love with its awful experience and scars, but a new love with its blank page and possibilities is being offered to me. All I have to do is accept it, move on with my life, and embrace the new beginning.

That wasn’t so hard isn’t? I sighed deeply. Michael was right. All I have to do is have courage to follow my heart. At yun ang gagawin ko.

 Screw you Ethan. You are such a freakin’ loser! I am totally done with you.

Isa lang ang buhay na ipinagkaloob sa atin ng Diyos at sadyang napaka-iksi pa nito? Isa lang. At hindi ko ito dapat sayangin. 

It’s time to enjoy and bring my life back. I know, I’ll be fine as long as Michael’s beside me.