The Sweet Desire

Chapter 40-A (Just Let it Go)

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 Chapter 40-A (Sarah’s POV)

One thing I hate about myself is when my anger turns into tears. This is one of my flaws. As I turned my back from Ethan, my body was shaking uncontrollably and my eyes were brimming with tears.

Bakit kailangan pang mangyari ulit ang mga ito? Kuntento na ako sa buhay ko dahil pagkatapos ng limang taon, nagkaroon ulit ako ng pagkakataong sumaya.

Maayos na sana ang lahat eh. But why does he need to show up again and ruined everything? Naka-moved on na ako. Ayaw ba niya akong makitang maging masaya? Why is he so damn selfish?

Naikuyom ko ang mga kamao ko at mariing ipinikit ang mga mata ko. Hanggang sa mga sandaling ito, ramdam na ramdam ko ang panginginig ng katawan ko sa matinding galit at pagkamuhi. 

Why do every memory that was once sweet ended in such ugliness? When Ethan showed up, flashbacks start right before my very eyes. The good ones and the bad ones.

Wala pa rin halos nagbago kay Ethan. Limang taon na ang nakakalipas pero napanatili niya ang kanyang pagiging guwapo at simpatiko. Siya pa rin yung dating Ethan na lilingunin ng kahit sinong babaeng madaanan niya.

Undoubtedly, he has still the power to take every girl’s breath away. His body became more fit and firm than before. I guess this has something to do with his modeling career. His cleft chin remained noticeable making him looked sexier. He definitely still has the charisma that every woman could dream of.

Yeah. Every woman.

But unfortunately, not me anymore.

One thing I’ve noticed is that he has dark circles under his eyes making his entire face looked tired and exhausted. I could tell he definitely didn’t have any good sleep since ages.

I examined all these in just a couple of seconds. I don’t intend to do that but it just came out naturally. I guess that’s the unique me after all.

Aaminin ko, sa unang pagtatama muli ng aming mga mata, magkahalong emosyon ang naramdaman ko. Lungkot at galit. Both feelings were strong and I didn’t know which one I could deal with first.

I guess what made me feel sad was the look in his eyes. I could tell he’s really in deep pain and sufferings.

But my little compassion for him immediately faded because looking at his face alone brings me back to the old memories that I wanted to forget.

Hanggang sa mga sandaling ito, paulit-ulit na bumabalik sa isipan ko ang lahat ng mga sinabi niya na lalong nakakadagdag sa nararamdaman kong galit sa kanya.

 

“Sarah, I’ve waited for you! Hinanap kita. Believe me, hindi ako tumigil sa kakahanap sa iyo. I love you! I never stop loving you!”