The Sweet Desire

Chapter 41 (The Art of Letting Go)

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 Natalie Portman as Vielle

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Chapter 41 (The Art of Letting Go)

Ethan’s POV

My mind was spinning with awful thoughts and I just didn’t want to think. Thoughts that made me feel sick and feel like I'm dying. Sarah definitely loves Michael, I could tell by the sparkles in her eyes while having a small talk with him over the phone.

How she uttered those three words sweetly to that man right in front of me. How perfect they are together. Pinipilit kong burahin ang lahat ng mga masasakit n bagay na ito sa aking isipan ngunit kahit anong pilit ko ay hindi ko magawa.

Alam kong hindi dapat dahil pahihirapan ko lamang lalo ang sarili ko pero hindi ko talaga maiwasan. Na para bang lahat ng mga ito ay naka-stuck na sa utak ko.

Halos dalawang linggo na rin ang nakakalipas mula ng magka-usap at magkita kami ni Sarah. Pero sa bawat araw na lumilipas, wala akong ginawa kung hindi ang isipin siya. Every time I think about her, I just couldn’t help but feel more and more frustrated, and hurt.

Maraming beses ko ring sinubukang kausapin muli si Sarah, pero sa tuwing susubukan ko ay harapan niya akong binabara at iniiwasan. At sa tuwing gagawin niya ito ay hindi ko maiwasang hindi masaktan.

She really didn’t care at all. I kept on sending her favorite red velvet roses though I know they are just good as trash but I just couldn’t help it. The thing is, somehow, I’m still hoping that maybe, she’ll change her mind and give me another chance. But I think that’s not going to happen.

Stupid heart keeps on hoping!

Every bone in my body was trying to force me to just let her go and move on, but my stupid selfish heart never stop wanting her…Loving her.

I tried to escape from all the good memories, from the love she’d given me but I guess forgetting her isn’t an easy process.  All memories keep on coming back as if they are real. Memories that made me feel sick. 

“Hey Ethan, it’s your turn!”

Nagitla pa ako at naputol sa aking pagmumuni-muni na biglang tawagin ng stage director ang pangalan ko. Dahil sa kaka-isip kay Sarah, nawala sa isipan ko na kasalukuyan pala akong nasa isang modeling rehearsal.

I was now standing at the middle of the runway and the Production Staff are actually waiting for me to move my sorry ass. I frowned and shook my head dismissing all the thoughts of her. Damn it. This isn’t good. I needed to focus or at the end of the day, I will lose even my career. 

I looked at the stage director apologetically.

“What’s wrong with you man? You’re being distant these past few days.” He asked frowning.