Anything But Ordinary: a Troyler AU.

Chapter 40: Sheddings of Gold.

I paced around for hours, on empty

I jumped at the slightest of sounds

And I couldn't stand the person inside me

I turned all the mirrors around

I'm bigger than my body
I'm colder than this home

I'm meaner than my demons
I'm bigger than these bones

And all the kids cried out,

"Please stop, you're scaring me"

I can't help this awful energy

Goddamn right, you should be scared of me

Who is in control?
I'm well acquainted

With villains that live in my bed

They beg me to write them

So they'll never die when I'm dead

And I've grown familiar

With villains that live in my head...

-Control by Halsey.

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Chapter 40: Sheddings of Gold.

{Connor's P.O.V.}

[A/N: Hi, I'm sorry for disappearing again for like a month & a half with no update, yikes, I'm sure my readers are dropping like flies. If you're still an active reader of mine, please comment here to let me know?(: I don't expect to be forgiven, especially because my writing has been shameful lately much like my last update, smh at me. I'm really sorry. PLEASE MAKE SURE YOU READ CHAPTER 37 & 39 TO BE ABLE TO COMPREHEND THIS ONE. Read my ending Author's Note because I have so much to say, mwah, xoxo, enjoy Chapter 40!]

I promised I'd do right by Tyler & this is definitely a promise I will keep. Tell me how am I going to get past all these swimming pools filled of my abundance of everlasting guilt & foolish pride?

Connor, you need to stop feeling so bad for yourself & get it together.

I dried my eyes, telling myself that I needed to be stronger than this if I was going to somehow save Tyler. Now, my problem is I don't know how.

I placed a finger on Tyler's neck to check for his pulse & leaned my ear against his mouth to see if he's breathing. I feel the thudding of his heart as I drained all the shit that used to feel right, clearing my conscious.

Thank God, Tyler's still alive.

There's a glimmer of hope like a mixture of smoke in the sky, but there won't be for long if I don't get him out soon & I mean as soon as possible.

"Tyler, can you hear me?" I croaked through my broken voice as well as broken heart & his head just ever so slightly nodded.

"I want you to know that I'm so so sorry about everything I've done to you. I'm going to get you out, okay? Don't think this is the end because you're going to get to see Troye again, I promise."

"Will he still love me?" Tyler slurred hopefully & I shut my eyes, hoping it'd cut off my emotions & stop the tears.

I forced a deep breath, feeling warm tears racing down my cheeks again while I glanced up at the ceiling to choke back the tears. I took one of Tyler's shakey hands into mine, giving it a small, reassuring squeeze for comfort.