"I can't take this anymore," I mumble to myself while grabbing my phone. I scroll through my contacts until I finally find Amy's number. Boy, I bet she really hates me now. Despite whatever feelings that Amy has toward her, I need her help. I have been trying to call Jess all week, but she never picked her phone up. I even called Jess' doorman and he said that he hasn't seen her for a while. He thought that maybe she's on a vacation. So naturally, I called her office. Anna, her secretary finally spilled after I shamelessly pleaded for any information on Jess. Anna confirmed that Jess has been taking a long term leave. So basically, Jess is MIA and I need an inside help to locate her. Asking Amy for a favor surely ensure another pleading in order. And I am sooo looking forward to that.
"Man up, Cara. This is your fault and now you're going to accept whatever shits that she's going to throw at you gracefully."
After I gave myself a much needed pep talk, I hit the call button. "Hey, Amy. This is Cara."
"Cara who?"
"Umm. Cara Delevingne? You know, Jess' ex?"
And she hung up. I take a deep breath and exhale it slowly. Calm down, Cara. You totally deserve this. I call Amy again and again, which she always rejected. Finally after probably at the hundredth call, she gives up and talks to me.
"What do you want, Cara?" She sounds terribly pissed.
"Amy, I know that you totally have the right to do what you just did, but please hear me out, at least for a while."
"Fine, jerk. Speak." She sighes loudly to the phone. "And make it brief."
"Sure. So I need your help. I want to see Jess and I believe that you know where she is."
And she hung up again. Goddamnit! I almost threw my phone when I heard that dial tone again. I close my eyes, trying to regain my calm back. Deal with the bitch for Jess. Just deal with the bitch for Jess. I chant it over and over again while I breathe slowly through my mouth. Maybe after these annoying phone calls with Amy, I would be a master of Zen and those balance shits.
"Amy, please don't hang up again." I try to speak as sweetly as I can.
"You know what you need, Cara? You need to leave Jess alone." She spits each words with the utmost venom that she can muster. "Haven't you already broke her heart enough? What do you want from her again?"
"Forgiveness. And second chance."
"I guess it's a little bit late for that, isn't it? It has been weeks since you two broke up and you want to asking for her forgiveness just now?"
"Well, I have been doing a lot of thinking."
"By sleeping around with everything that moves?" Amy sounds so smug, I really want to strangle this difficult woman. But she is right and she's just protecting Jess.
"I was wrong and I was being a massive jerk. I am sorry. I really am. But just please help me out here. I'm not asking you to forgive me or support me here. I just want to know where she is."
"No."
"Oh, come on, Amy." I groan and throw my hands in frustration. "Don't you think that at least Jess deserves an apology from me?"
"What I really think that Jess needs now is peace. And by telling you where she is right now, I won't be doing her any favor."
"I really love her, Amy. I really do. Please. Please just help me out." Amy is my last hope of finding Jess, and now I don't think that luck is on my side. I will never find her until it's too late.
"Then why did you cheated on her at the first place?"
"Because I was stupid and selfish." I sincerely admit that to Amy, hoping that she can hear my remorse.
"And you're wiser and selfless now?" Amy says sarcastically with a well placed snort.
"No," I admit. "But now I know that I can't live without her."
"Oh, how unselfish of you to said that," she laughs. I can almost see her rolling her eyes at me. Whatever. "Have it crossed your egomaniac mind that maybe she can and will live without you?"
For once, I cannot think of any comebacks to her statement. Amy finally said the very thing that has been haunting my mind since I broke up with Jess. When Amy realized that I'm not going to answer that, she continues.
"She's in Flores, Indonesia. At Komodo Resort on Labuan Bajo, to be exact."
"Thank you, Amy!" I almost shout to my phone when she finally spilled. But she stops me midsentence.
"Listen, jerk," she emphasizes on the word jerk. "I only give this information to you because I know that Jess is capable to shut you up on her own. So don't expect that she's going to rush into your arms instantly. She's smarter than that."
"Of course. I only want to apologize to her." And to get her back, bitch.
"And I want to warn you that I can be a very violent person if I must. I also have all of the right contacts to do so." She pauses for a while to dramatize her threath. "So if somehow you broke her heart again, I'll make you regret the day that you born."
Then she hung up again right after she finished her threat. What is up with this girl and hanging up? I don't remember that Jess has any mob friends, but this woman gives that kind of impression. I shake my head and book the first flight to Flores. It turned out to be a super long flight when I checked. Damn it. I wonder why the hell Jess has to go to the other end of the world for a vacation. Did I really hurt her that bad?
