How deep is your love?

CHAPTER 25 (Cold-blooded)

"He's not badly hurt, so please calm down." That's all the doctor could say. It's my fault that the body guard got shot instead of Xavier. Xavier almost died if he wasn't saved earlier. Hindi ako mapalagay. Pakiramdam ko napakamalas kong tao. Pakiramdam ko pinaglalayo na talaga kami ng tadhana. It's like the opposing forces are getting stronger than ever.

"Hindi naman natamaan ang vital organs niya kaya baka next week lang makalabas na siya agad. The guy is really good to save you Mr. Tan and his injury not serious. Let him keep the job. I'm sure he will be better." Sabi naman ng doktor.

"Opo doc, Marco has been the best bodyguard at home. He'll keep his job dahil siya talaga ang pinakamagaling sa batch nila. Salamat nga pala doc."

Nanatili akong nakasandal sa pader ng corridor sa ER habang tulala. Alam kong hindi rin nila ako makausap nang maayos kasi nga hindi ko rin alam ang isasagot ko. Kung alam ko lang eh 'di sana kanina ko pang pinansin ang mga taong kumakausap sa akin. Hindi ako manhid na dahil bodyguard siya eh okay lang. It's not good that people are getting hurt because of me. I can't gamble everyone because of me.

I wiped my tears. Hindi ko naman pwedeng iyakan na lang ang problema. Kailangan kong harapin kung ano man 'to. Seryoso na ang mga pangyayari kaya siguro dapat sabihin ko na sa mga magulang ko ang nangyari. I know it would break their hearts but I have no choice but to tell them. Natatakot akong atakehin sa puso ang nanay ko kasi mahina talaga ang puso niya, pero dapat lang malaman nila ang nangyayari sa nag-iisang anak nila dito Maynila.

I stared at my dress from waist below, puro pula. Kita ko pa rin ang dugong galing sa bodyguard na dapat naman talaga ay kay Xavier. It could have been his blood if he wasn't saved. If he wasn't saved, I know that the shot will be enough to make him die. Hired sniper ang lalaki at malamang sa puso niya patatamaan si Xavier. Hindi ko alam kung dapat nga ba akong manatili sa tabi niya.

Nanginginig pa rin ako. Hindi ako makapaniwala na dito aabot ang lahat. All we thought is the guy could be probably harmless pero hindi. Hindi talaga. Kaya niya palang makapanakit at halos makapatay ng tao. Is that guy in love with me? Is this what love can do to people? Nakakatakot. Nakakatakot na isipin na dahil mahal mo ang isang tao eh makakapatay ka na. Love is dangerous after all.

Xavier just hugged me with all his strength. Alam ko naman na hindi niya ako sinisisi pero hindi ko mapigilan na sisihin ang sarili ko. I saw how the blood spilled before my eyes and that is different from the operations I did. I do incisions, not shoot people. The blood this time is different; it splashed all over the place. 

The difference is we're trying to save a life and not to take it.

"Alex, calm down. Please? They bodyguard is fine and he'll heal. Just stay strong, okay? The sniper is already with the police kaya pwede ka nang makahinga nang maluwag. This just means na hindi kaya ng stalker mo physically makasakit kasi duwag siya. He hired someone to do the job for him. Stay strong for me and Ethan, please? He's really worried about you. God, I love you so much Alexandra. Seeing you cry tears me apart." He said then he buried his face on shoulder.  

"How can I stop him? Is there a way? Hindi ko na kaya, Xavier. Bakit niya ako pinapahirapan?! Wala siyang... karapatan." I cried really hard in the middle of the hallway. I collapsed in the floor still crying. Hindi ako makapaniwala na ang mga nakikita ko lang sa TV eh sa akin na nangyari. My perfect bubble is now popped and I don't know how to solve this. Parang kinuha ang mga bagay na akin.

"Alex!" I saw Mark and he hugged me along with Kayla and Cassie. Buti na lang nadito pa rin ang mga kaibigan ko. I thought I wasn't gonna make it. I thought I was going mad because of emotional stress. Hindi ko alam na kakayanin ko pala kasi nandyan sila.