How deep is your love?

Chapter 10 (The bitch slap)

I accepted Nathaniel's offer to be my date kahit na medyo naiilang ako sa kanya. Hindi naman ako masamang nilalang kaya pumayag na ako. All the girls will be so angry with me. Bakit ba sa lahat ng babae eh ako ang napili niyang yayain. For all the girls, jologs na doktor pa ang napili niya.

He gave me an emerald-colored form-fitting dress. Medyo ang awkward sa feeling kasi ang fitting at ang mahal sobra ng damit na 'to. In dollars ang presyo at ang sabi $3000 ang presyo at ang sabi sa tag ay 'Isaac Mizrahi'.

Nagpamake-up ako kay Cassandra kaya naman nagmukha akong tao sa mata nila. Postura talaga lahat ng mga tao dito kaya naman dapat at sabayan ko man lang sila kahit papaano.

Nathaniel rejected the dress I initially bought somewhere in Ayala kasi masyadong conservative raw. Hindi daw bagay sa event kaya daw inunahan na niya agad ako. I was flattered when he complimented me earlier with the way I look right now. Ang saya sa pakiramdam na maganda ako ngayon.

"You look really lovely in that dress, Alex. I can see women eyeing you with envy." I pouted kasi naman nahihiya ako tuwing lolokohin niya ako, especially when his remark about is real. Women eye me with hate and envy dahil si Atty. Corpuz nga naman ang best accessory ko in this look.

"I know, and kulang na lang ipa-shoot to kill ako ng mga babae dito kasi kasama kita." Natawa siya sa sinabi ko at nagpatuloy sa pag-inom ng white wine.

"I don't wanna be a target of death stares, Atty. Corpuz. It just makes me wanna go home kapag nakikita ko silang naiinis sa akin. Like I don't have the right to be seen with you."

"Some girls here can fortune-hunters, Dr. Jung. Mahirap maniwala sa mga babaeng halos ibigay ang kaluluwa nila sayo. Ayoko sa babaeng walang plano sa buhay. Ayokong sa akin lang iikot ang mundo niya."

"So are you trying to say that I'm that girl? Tss. Ala mo, I'm too busy for relationships. Marami akong plano sa buhay at mahihirapan kang makasingit. As soon as I'm back at the hospital, hindi mo na ako makikita. Palapit na ang internship exams, wala na akong panahon para intindihin ang sarili ko at ang ibang tao." He just smiled at me and smirked. The typical cool Atty. Corpuz is standing before me, bewitching almost all the females in this ballroom.

"You're such a cruel girl, Dr. Jung. Magkakagusto ka rin sa akin at pag nangyari 'yun di na kita papansinin. Bahala ka, gwapo pa naman ako."

"I just don't think we fit. "

"We will in time, okay?" He said.

"Whatever." I replied.

I am searching the entire ball room hoping to see him. Is it this bad to think of him? I really like him and I was just being in denial. Nakakastress kasi alam kong mali pero bakit pa parang magnet siya na hinihila ako palapit? Ang hirap kaya. Ang hirap mangarap na ang katulad niya magkakagusto sa akin.

This isn't a fairytale. Atty. Corpuz could be the fairy godmother, but there will be no prince. Walang magliligtas o magdadala ng happily ever after. I'm destined to be a doctor. I'm supposed to be dedicating myself for the sake of medicine, but why do I feel like I'm starting to get lost along the way?

Then a couple entered the ballroom. Nagsigawan ang empleyado. There standing before us is a beautiful couple. The woman is wearing a lilac princess gown with her light brown hair sashaying on her shoulders. Her ears are adorned with beautiful jeweled-earrings.

The scene is breath-taking. Sobrang ganda niya at mahigpit ang pagkakahawak niya sa lalaking kasama niya na nakasuot ng tuxedo.

Xavier Tan is the beautiful woman's escort. Sweet silang dalawa at nagtatawanan. They are a match made in heaven. My heart is clenching. Parang ang hirap tingnan. This scene is too hard to digest. Ang hiral pagmasdan ang ganitong eksena. This is too much. This is such a hard blow.