The CEO's Secretary

Chapter 41: Desperate

(Sebastian's POV)
"The heck? What's Operation: G.A.B? Are you playing with me Gail?" I asked Gail. We're talking about our plan on postponing the wedding and getting Aisha back. Then she mention Operation: G.A.B.  Sounds nonsense right?

"You'll thank me after this Sebastian!" then she smirked. "Operation: G.A.B ! Operation: Get Aisha Back!" she said loudly.

"I thought it's something so deep. Then tell me about this plan.. I mean Operation😑."

"Well, it goes like this..."

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(Aisha's POV)
"Ang saya talaga dito Van! I can't believe na next next week, flight na natin pabalik sa Pilipinas." I said to Van. Yes. Tama kayo ng basa na next next week babalik na kami sa Pilipinas. We really don't want to get back earlier, but Van was reminded that Sebastian, his cousin, will be getting married this month.

"Same thoughts Aisha. I'll miss US eventhough madalas na ako dito because of business matters."

We are currently strolling here at the park where we became officially a couple—well, at Van's perspective. I know you're confused right now but, you'll know it at the right time.

Van laid a blanket on the ground at an open field. Naupo kami dun at nilabas na rin naman niya ung mga dala naming pagkain sa basket. You know, the traditional type of picnics.

Its already past 8 in the evening and the breeze bring chills to my skin. Van got the extra blanket we brought at the bag. Ginamit niya un to cover myself.

"Stars are really wonderful, aren't they? They look so happy twinkling." Van said. I looked at Van and he's staring at the billions of stars in the sky.

"Yes. Looks like they don't get tired twinkling to each other." I agreed. Ito ang gusto ko sa mga park kapag gabi eh. Sobrang visible ng mga stars.

"I hope we could be stars."

"Huh? Why?"

"I hope we don't get tired loving each other like the stars do. They don't get tired twinkling."

"But I don't like us to be stars." I said.

"Huh? Don't you want us to love each other forever?" he shockingly asked.

"No. What I am trying to say is that stars easily fades away. Whenever the sun rises, the stars disappear. I don't like that to happen. Parang ang dating kasi sakin, temporary lang ang feelings na nararamdaman natin sa isa't-isa. Parang pag may dumating lang na iba, our feelings would easily disappear." I explained.

He just nodded and continued eating and staring at the stars, at the same time.

I'm quite confused to myself—to my feelings to Van rather.  I always ask myself, "Did I answered Van because I love him or is it because of my another shitty plan?"

"Hey! Are you okay? Are you listening to me?" I came back to the world and realized I'm daydreaming ang thinking so deep that I'm nearly drown.

"Yes. You're saying?"

"Nothing. I just said, I really love you Aisha. And I can't afford losing someone like you..." Van said and kissed me on my forehead.

My conscience is killing me after I heard those words. I'm not the Aisha that can't play other's feeling for her own sake.

I'm sorry Van. I'm really desperate.

Desperate to get Sebastian back.
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(Sophia's POV)

Ilang linggo na lang, kasal na namin ni Sebastian. Pero, bakit parang ako lang excited para sa kasal namin? Si Sebastian kasi, puro na lang trabaho! Trabaho! Nakakalimutan na ang personal niyang buhay dahil sa lecheng trabaho na iyan!

As usual, nandito ako sa bahay namin ni Sebastian, nag-iinternet. Sobra na akong bored dito. Kaya bigla na lang pumasok sa isip ko to.

Sinearch ko sa google, 'Paano ba ako mamahalin ng taong di naman ako mahal?'

Alam ko naman na napakababaw kong tao para itanong pa kay google iyan. Pero, hindi naman halata na desperado akong mahalin ako ni Sebastian diba?

Matapos ang ilang minuto, lumabas na ang mga result at answer sa tanong ko. Pati pala Google konti lang ang alam sa pag-ibig. Isa lang naman kasi ang lumabas at isang blog pa iyon.

Klinick ko yung URL.

www.sawisapag-ibig.ph

Ganon ba ako? Sawi sa pag-ibig? Hindi kaya! May fianceé ako at malapit na kaming ikasal. Mahal ko kaya siya.. Mahal din kaya niya ako?

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Iyan ung lumabas. Wala naman sigurong mawawala kung itry ko to diba?

Tinype ko na ung tanong ko at ung email add ko. Gumamit naman akong ng ibang pangalan, baka kasi scam lng to.

Inopen ko ung email ko at naisend nga sa akin nung may-ari ng blog na iyon ang sagot sa tanong ko.

"Paano ba ako mamahalin ng taong di naman ako mahal?"

Dear Pia,
Napakahirap nga ng sitwasyon mo. Babae ka kaya dapat hindi ikaw ang nagiging desperado sa relasyon niyo. Pero ang masasabi ko nalang ay, Wag mong ipagsiksikan ang sarili mo sa taong hindi ka naman gusto. Tandaan mo, kung isisiksik mo ang sarili mo sa jeep na punong-puno na, mahihirapan ka lang. Try mong humanap ng iba, baka maging komportable ka pa. Sana natugunan ko ng sagot ang tanong mo.
Wag kang mahihiyang lumapit sa akin kapag kailangan mo ng kausap.
-Mr. Sawi

Nangilid ang luha ko sa nabasa ko. Ganon na ba talaga akong kadesperado para ipagsiksikan ko ang sarili ko kay Sebastian?

Awang-awa na ako sa sarili ko. Nailunok ko ang pride ko para lang mahalin ako ng taong hindi ko naman mahal . Ano ba ang nag-udyok sa akin para gawin to?

Arrange Marriage. Letcheng Arrange Marriage iyan!

😫😫😫😓😓
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(Van's POV)
Passengers of Flight 307 please proceed to the lobby now. We're ready to take-off at any minute from now. I repeat, passengers of flight 307 please proceed to the lobby now.  We're ready to take-off at any minute from now. Thank you.

"Aisha, its our flight number. We're gonna be late. Halika na." I told Aisha. Mukhang wala kasi yata siyang balak  umalis.

"Okay Van. Mamimiss ko kasi talaga ang America." she said before standing up.

We boarded the plane and after almost 10 minutes, we're now at the journey back to the Philippines.

"Aisha, are you okay?" She's silent the whole time. Parang may problema yata siya eh. And I hope this is not about Sebastian's wedding.

"Okay lang ako."

"Bakit ang tahimik mo ata?"

She let out a deep sigh after saying,"I'm not yet ready Van. I'm still not ready to see Sebastian getting married to another woman."

I see. She's still can't move on after what I've done to let her forget Sebastian.

"Its okay Aisha. I'm always here at your side." I said then held her hands tight to feel that she's secured.

Damn you Sebastian Perez! Because of you, the girl I love is still in pain. I'm sorry, but I'll never let you see or touch Aisha again. I'm sorry. I'm really desperate.

Desperate to be Aisha's husband.
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