Shaking Shoulders // Joshler

Seven

Josh's POV;

This morning I woke up without Tyler in my arms. He was distant last night trying to avoid my touch in bed. I know I'm half asleep when I put my arm around him but I do realize what I'm doing. However, the past few nights I've been doing it on my own while I'm awake so last night when I did it his body stiffened and scooted an inch from mine. Now it's morning and I gave up trying to even get close to him but he's not even in bed at the moment.

I get up and see Tyler left his signature night shirt that I always give him folded next to my phone. He's so adorable with my clothes on; they're all too big and he looks like a little kid. I sigh and grab my phone seeing his text.

From; TyJo

My dad wanted me home so I went home

Sent; 6:15 a.m

I frown knowing Tyler would never listen to his dad. I hope he's okay; today's the day I'm going to ask him out and it's taken like a whole week for me to consider my feelings.I love Tyler Joseph.

Tyler's POV

I poke around my breakfast wishing I was with Josh still. "Everything okay Tyler?" my dad says, noticing my distress. "Yeah." I reply. My dad gives up trying to talk to me and simply hands me my pill. I take it and leave the house. Ohio is cold at night and in the morning so I grabbed a blanket and my music journal for when I got up in the tree house.

I go into the corner across from the clean spot where I hurt myself a few weeks ago.

you should do it again

It's been awhile since the voices have bothered me. It seems as if Josh is my shield from them because when he's around my head is completely silent. I sit with the blanket on me and write more music in my journal as the whispers continue. The silence of the woods is short lived when I hear the crunching of sticks below me. To my surprise Josh came to the tree house too and once he came up the ladder and made eye contact with me; he wasn't surprised at all. It's almost as if he knew I'd be here and not at my dad's house. I began to panic since he found out I lied to him.

He gets under the blanket next to me without saying a word. He just has his head on my shoulder and then the whispers stop. I just continue writing a bunch of things I'll fix later but I really don't want to engage in conversation with Josh. But I think it's time for me to get some confidence and tell him how I feel. I'm tired of shying away from my emotions and it's time to show myself who's boss.
"Josh." Oh lord never mind. He looks up at me still leaning on my shoulder. "I'm sorry for lying to you." He sighs. "I know Ty." He doesn't say anything else.

"I need to..tell you something." I say with a shaky voice. I don't know if I can actually go through with him rejecting me but at least I'd be getting these feelings off of my chest.

"Yeah?"
I take a big breath and get ready to blurt out that I have feelings for him.
"I-I like someone." Ugh that didn't come out the way I wanted it to.

"Me too." That hurts.

"Oh. What's their name?"

"Tyler." Of course the girl he likes has the name Tyler too.

"Oh. They must be cool." I reply not making eye contact.

"Oh my god Tyler it's you! This Tyler that I'm laying up against."He laughs. "Not any other Tyler and now I know you like someone else and I don't know what to do about it." His gorgeous smile transitions into an frown. Wow. I'm unsure of how to respond, I was so sure he was straight. How could I be so oblivious.
"Are you kidding me? Who else do I even talk to?" I laugh. "Josh I'm really into you and you should've known ya goof!" He sits up and hugs me tightly.

"Tyler, will you go out with me?" Did he even have to ask?

"Oh my god yes. Of course I will."

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I looked up at Josh, my boyfriend. God did it make me feel all giddy calling him that even in my head. It's been about another week well spent with Josh. I've known him for around a month now and I'm already dating him. Josh is the only person who has made the evil thoughts that twist my mind disappear Josh makes me feel loved; something I haven't felt in a long time. Josh was pure comfort. He felt like home. One simple kiss on the cheek or hug would have me weak and wanting more. I look up at him and just hug him some more.

This morning Josh made me go back to my dads and try to make things better with him. Josh is so considerate of my life of course he'd do that.

I figured it would be easy to since my dad should be the one apologizing and I was right. But not completely; we both fessed up to all we've done to affect each other and talked a lot of things out.Of course my father had noticed my change in mood since I've had more pep in my step rather then moping. He and I actually had a conversation this morning at breakfast and I didn't mind it. My brother stared, amazed I would even say a word to my dad without being forced. My dad has been growing on me a bit. He knew I had feelings about Josh but didn't say anything in fear I would run away from another argument again. But now that I've told him everything a father should know about their child and he respected my relationship and I actually felt me and my dad were on good terms.

I was in my room ready to go over Josh's again when he texted me.

From; Joshypoo

U wanna meet some of my friends tonight??

Oh no I don't do well with new people or people in general. I don't want Josh to think I'm a freak and anti social. I reply saying yes and change out of my sweatpants because I obviously wanna look better than homeless. Hmm black skinny jeans or black skinny jeans?

I go to Josh's house and he meets me with a big hug. When are we gonna start kissing I want his plump pink lips to just brush against mine. He takes me outside and we both get in his moms car. He says we're going to his friend Pete's house down the road.

When we enter the cute house we're met by a few other guys and I soon learn their names are Brendon, Ryan, Spencer, Patrick, Mark, Dallon, and the Pete who lived here. They all kindly introduced themselves and made me feel apart of their friend group.

We had a lot of fun just talking; they all mentioned Josh texted them a lot about me making me blush. Josh held my hand while they all went on about parties, music, and concerts. They invited Josh and I to a party but he said no before I could cringe. He knows I'm shy and a party wouldn't be the best scene for me, I love how he knows me so well.

It gets late and Josh yawns so I suggest we get going because I can't wait to cuddle with him at his house again. We say our goodbyes without him letting go of my hand and it makes me smile like I'm a nutcase. The short drive back to his house he never took his hand off of my thigh and I try to sustain my huge smile so I bit my lip and look out the window.

Me and Josh undressed in his room and he handed me his shirt like usual and I smiled; I feel like I smile so much around him. It's as if I'm making up years of lost smiles with him. I walk up to him and run my hands through his brown hair then I close my eyes and kiss him. I can tell he was't expecting it when he jolted but quickly recovered to kiss me back. I don't know what got to me since I usually would have contemplated about kissing him for an hour before actually doing so but I guess my minds not itself when I'm around Josh.

The whole night Josh and I continuously kissed here and there before we fell asleep in each others arms.

a/n; I decided I'd make chapters a tad longer :)

May ??, 2016; another update that made me realize how illiterate I am