Shaking Shoulders // Joshler

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Josh's POV

Once his eyes met mine a strong feeling of dread weighted on my shoulders. He looked restless and worn and I had the strongest urge to just get up from my booth and hug him and tell him how much I love him. He looked away shortly after but every now and then we would catch each other staring at one another.

Pete came back from the restroom and the three of them left the diner and I received one last glance from Ty. "So it is bad huh?" Shane asked. I nodded and sighed. He must have finished his sandwich when I was staring since he was paying his check. We got up and he gave me an awkward hug before leaving the diner.

Once I got to the house I realized how lonely I'd be until Tyler gets back. I'm sure all the guys are too busy with him to even think about me. I love Ty so much I just wish I knew what happened. At that thought I jumped up from my seat on the couch. I rushed to get my car keys and stormed out of the house.

Once I made it to my destination I ruffled my hair and put on a snapback from the backseat of my car. I walked up to her door and did a simple two knocks. A few minutes passed before she swung the door open.

"Oh hey Josh." Jenna smiled.

"Cut the shit. Why is Tyler upset with me." I didn't tell her he tried to kill himself, I need answers right now.

"I don't know why he wo-"

"I will repeat myself and you will tell the truth. Why is Tyler upset with me?" I spoke harshly and she was taken aback. I was surprised at myself for being so mean.

"We saw you out with that other guy the other day. He talked to me for awhile and it came out that he thought that you were cheating on him." She sighed. I felt a lump in my throat rise, he should know I love him so much and I would never do such a thing he's my everything.

"I didn't think he'd get so upset over it." She said.

"Jenna he tried killing himself." my voice cracked. Her hands shot up and covered her mouth.

"Oh my god." she looked down past me as I looked at her door handel.

"Well, have you been cheating on him?" She asked.

"For fucks sake-" tears began to form in my eyes "-I've been planning a proposal. That guy has been helping me set up a perfect place for it." I wiped my cheeks and huffed.

"Oh Josh." Jenna hugged me with her wet eyes dampening my shirt. "I'm so sorry.

A moment passed before she peeled herself off of me, I didn't hate Jenna it's just she represented a bad time in my life when Tyler was hers. "Does Tyler know?"

"No of course not. It's a surprise but I don't know if it's even going to happen anymore." I sighed.

"Just convince him you were doing other things with your guy friends."

I shrugged my shoulders, if I were to just hang out with them Tyler would come with me and he knows it that's probably why he thought I was cheating.

"Thanks for helping me find some answers. And Tyler's okay now he's out of the hospital." I fixed my shirt as she returned to her door.

"Bye Josh, I'm sorry."

"Bye."

I got back in my car not even knowing what to do, I just decided to go home and I planned to clean myself up in the morning.

Tyler's POV

I woke up cold, another night without Josh nuzzled into my neck.  I sighed and sat up in the bed. Would Josh actually go through with cheating on me?

most likely

But he always said I was his pride and joy, I knew he meant it.

bullshit

I sighed once more before I peeled myself off the bed. I walked into the bathroom groggily and turned on the light. I took notice to the mirror and realized I didn't look like myself anymore. It was as if the eyes staring back at me weren't mine. The dark circles under my eyes proved that I stayed up at night with Josh on my mind. Due to not having enough energy to groom myself I had thin hairs growing along my chin and upper lip and my hair was down to my eyes.

The bandage on my arm had turned a gray/yellow color rather then the initial white. I unwrapped my wrist and I ran my fingers along the marks I made.

do it again

I rolled new bandage onto my arm and left the bathroom. Downstairs Pete was eating a pear with the news on and Patrick was no where to be seen.

"Hey." He looked up from the TV and spoke to me. He got up from the couch and walked over to where I was in the kitchen. "Hi, uh where's Pat?" I asked. He threw away the core of his fruit and wiped his mouth. "He decided he would stay at his place for once." He smiled while I simply nodded in response. "So how'd you sleep Tyler?" He leaned up against the counter while I fiddled with my thumbs.

"I slept okay but uh would it be okay if you could drop me off at my place?" his grin transitioned and his facial expression read that he was both surprised and confused. "I mean yeah of course but are you ready? It's only been three days." three days too many away from Josh.

"Yeah I'm ready." I did a small smile to comfort him but his expression remained the same. "Alright, just get your stuff ready I guess, we can leave in about ten minutes." He turned away from me and made his way back to the living room. As he plopped down on the couch I ran down the hallway back into the bedroom. I grabbed my full bag from the ground and ran into the bathroom.

I didn't feel like showering or anything, I'd do that at home. I walked back out his room with my duffel bag. I was wearing pajama pants and Josh's t-shirt while Pete was fully clothed. He switched off the TV and led me to his car without a word.

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The drive from his house to mine wasn't long but it felt that way with the dreadful silence. We pulled up to the driveway and it was then that I developed a fit of anxiety. What if Josh didn't want to see me? What if he was with another man? I shook the doubts away and waved Pete off. I looked down at my watch before opening the door. It was only ten in the morning so Josh would be asleep still.

I walked into Josh and I's house still nervous.

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