Don't Look Back

Again...

A few weeks later...

Ross's POV

I was sitting at my desk, depressed that Alana had just packed up and left without telling me before she was gone. I got the goodbye text days after we got home from camp. She told me she was sorry for not telling me she was moving and a long distance relationship was useless because I was here with Sky, not that it mattered, she was secretly dating 'Charlie'. She said that she didn't tell me because of Sky, I didn't even know what that meant. This must have been how Riker felt. I heard a knock at my door, "It's open." I said, not turning around. I heard Sky's voice, "I need to talk to you." I spun around, she hasn't spoken to me since we left the airport. "How's your wrist?" I looked at her ankle, nothing. She said, "Just a little scar, but its going away." All of her scrapes and bruises were completely gone. "You always did heal unusually fast." She said, "Yeah, Ross, I have something I need to tell you." I said, "Sure, what is it?" She said, "I knew that Alana was leaving." I stood up, she took a step back. That was why Riker got mad at her, she knew and she didn't tell him. "Why didn't you tell me?" I said. She said, "Same thing happened with Riker, Carissa told me and I didn't tell him. I didn't want to be the one to tell him. But that's not entirely why I didn't tell you." I said, "Then why didn't you tell me?" She said, "I didn't want to. She was so cruel, and even when I fell off of a cliff because of her, you didn't seem to see that." I said, "I did, but I still loved her." She was crying now, "But I hated her and I wanted her to leave, I didn't even consider your feelings. I'm so sorry." I said, "That's your problem, you never think about anyone else. It's all about you." I knew that was a huge lie, she had always put others first, she kind of didn't care about herself. She said, "I do?" I said, "Just leave. Please." She said, "Ross, Im sorry." I said, "You need to leave, now." She said, "Ross please." She was searching for forgivenesses. I wanted to forgive her, but it was wrong of her to keep it from me. "Get out!" I screamed. She said, "I'm sorry." And ran out. I turned back to my desk, I had been drawing a picture, I crumpled it up and threw it across the room.

Ross's POV

I heard a loud thud outside, it was probably just a raccoon or something. But about twenty minutes later I heard sirens outside of my window. I heard panic in my house, everyone running outside. I jumped up, realized I was in my boxers, so I put on some pants and ran outside. My whole family was outside standing by a car with its headlights on, showing a girl in the dark, just lying on the floor. All I could see was her back, because she was turned away from me, but I knew who it was. I saw what she was wearing, the light blue hoodie I gave to her two years ago. It was Skylar, and she was sitting in her own pool of blood. I was in shock and I couldn't move. Was she dead? Riker turned around and saw me standing there. He ran over to me and made me turn around so I wasn't looking at her, but the image was cemented into my mind. "Ross, its gonna be okay, she's gonna be okay." She had just gotten better. I shook my head and looked at him, tears were running from my eyes, "And what if she's not? The last things I said to her was that I hated her and I wished something terrible happens to her. And it did, its all my fault!" He hugged me because I was falling apart. He said, "It's not your fault, its mine."

Ross's POV

I shook my head, "No it's not, I wanted something bad to happen to her, it's my fault." Riker let me go, "Trust me Ross, its not your fault." Then he walked away. What did he mean by it was his fault? They loaded Sky into the ambulance and my mom told me to go, she said, If she wakes up, we don't want her to be overwhelmed with a lot of people." I started crying again, "If?" My mom quickly realized what she said, "When, I meant when." I got in my car and went to the hospital, when I walked in I saw everyone in the lobby staring at me. I looked down and realized that I wasn't wearing a shirt. I went over to the front desk and asked the woman where Sky was, she pointed me down the hall. When I went down there I saw Sky laying in a hospital bed, they had gotten all the blood off of her, and she was in a hospital gown. But they were still working on her, I knocked on the door and a nurse walked out. "What are they doing?" The nurse said, "A piece of the car is lodged into her side, if they don't remove it now she could die." I said, "So she's going to be okay if they get it out?" She said, "Why don't you wait int the waiting room across the hall." I said, "You didn't answer my question!" She said, "Do you really want me to?" She had a point, I walked into the waiting room and stared into the window across the hall. I couldn't see what was going on because all of the doctors were blocking my view. If they needed this many doctors it couldn't be good. I was gonna find the sick bastard who did this and they are gonna get a taste of their own medicine. I was raging mad. And at the same time I was terrified. What if she doesn't make it? I couldn't afford to lose my best friend. She's the best thing that ever happened to me.

Ross's POV

After sitting and thinking in the waiting room for three hours, it came to me. I was the worst best friend ever. The nurse walked in, I didn't want to hear those words, "Please don't say, 'I'm sorry.' Please don't." She smiled at me, "I don't need to." I stood up. "She's okay?" The nurse nodded, "She's knocked out right now but you can go in there and wait until she wakes up, she's gonna be a little loopy and dizzy for the next couple of days. And she might have some extreme emotions, she will feel nauseous, so when you take her back home, you need to make sure she stays in bed." I said, "Thank you." I had years in my eyes. I ran across the hallway and into the room. She looked very fresh. She had a nice new hospital gown, blood free, but she was very pale. I pulled a chair up to her bed. I knew she wouldn't be waking up any time soon. I sat down and held her hand in mine. "I'm so sorry Skylar. I shouldn't have said those things to you, I shouldn't have been such a horrible friend. Even though you probably can't hear me, there's something I need to say. You have always been there for me, whenever I need something you always give it to me, when I go for an audition, you practice night and day with me. When I need comfort, you're there, when I have any drama in my life, you fix it. When I have problems, you help me. You have been there for me my entire life, but I'm almost never there for you. And I'm so sorry. You deserve so much better, but you settle for me. I don't know why, or how you do it. But Sky, you have so many problems and issues in your life, but you always have time for me. I'm sorry I never did the same. But things are different now, I'm here for you one hundred percent. I promise."

I stayed there for the next three days, waiting for her to wake up, every day Riker would come to the hospital and bring me a change of clothes and some food. Riker  came in one morning and he brought me some breakfast and a new change of clothes, I said thanks and went into the bathroom to change. When I came back I saw Riker holding Sky's hand as he cried. He said, "I'm so sorry." I knocked on the door frame. He looked up at me, "I think you need to see something." I nodded, "Ok."