Remenissions (Avenged Sevenfold)

Chapter 78

Lana's POV

What sort of mother was I going to make? When I'd gotten hit at work, not once had the baby even entered my mind, not once did I think if the baby was okay. That was horrible, I was horrible.

I fell asleep quickly, but I woke up needing the bathroom and it was when I went that I saw the blood. It was a terrifying moment, seeing the blood and all I could think was that I was losing my baby all because some crack head had hit me.

Going to the hospital was horrible, one, because I was scared of what they would tell me and two, Matt. Matt had to drive me and he had no idea I was pregnant in the first place.

I was thankful that everything was okay, my baby was fine, I just had to rest for a few days and when the doctor told me I cried with relief. I hadn't been pregnant for long but to me this was my baby, I was already in love with it and the thought of losing it terrified me.

The drive home was awkward, Matt was angry and I didn't blame him, but I wasn't going to argue about it now, I just wanted to sleep, that was all. We could talk about it tomorrow, but now sleep.

I climbed in to bed before him and I felt him get in, he just laid there. Any other time him not touching me would have bothered me, but now, now I was too tired and it took me about a minute to fall asleep.

When I opened my eye's I could tell it was late and I turned over, glancing at the clock. It was after midday already and I felt a little disorientated, but we had had a very late night. I looked over and Matt was still sleeping so I got up quietly and went into the bathroom. I needed a shower.

I was pleased to see that the bleeding had stopped and that made me enjoy my shower even more and by the time I had finished I was starving, so I headed into the kitchen. I would cook a huge breakfast, something Matt would enjoy.

I grabbed eggs, bacon, bread and I started cooking, humming softly to myself.

"What are you doing?" Matt asked, walking in.

I turned around looking at him. He was standing there in a pair of shorts, with a just woken up look on his face.

"Making breakfast." I said quickly, turning around. He still looked pissed. "Bacon, eggs, French toast."

"Lana." He snapped. "No, you're supposed to be resting."

"It's just breakfast."

"Go into the living room and I'll finish." He said walking over. "I'll call you when it's ready."

"It's fine." I said softly, wishing he wasn't so angry.

"Lana, go." He snapped.

I put down my spatula and turned, walking into the living room. I sat down and stared at the wall. I could understand why he was angry, I just didn't like it.

Damn, I'd started crying, I didn't mean to, but with all that had happened last night and now Matt being angry at me, I guess it caught up with me, so I sat there, silently crying, staring at the wall.

"It's ready." Matt said, causing me to jump. I was so deep in my misery I hadn't heard him come in.

"I'm not hungry." I said wiping at my face so he wouldn't see my tears.

"Lana." He snapped. "Go and eat something."

I got up quickly and went into the dining room. He'd done a pretty good job and I'd lied when I told him I wasn't hungry, I was starving, so I sat there, eating. Matt didn't join me, I could hear him in the shower, so I sat there eating by myself, and fuck, I was crying again. Fucking hormones.

"Did you leave me any?" He asked, walking in about five minutes later.

I looked at everything, obviously I had been hungry because I'd cooked enough for ten people. "There's enough." I said softly, standing up and grabbing my plate.

"Leave it." He said.

"It's just a plate." I said looking at him.

"I said leave it Lana." He told me, sticking a piece of bacon in his mouth. "Go rest, I'll clean it up."

There was no point arguing, Matt was pissed at me and if I argued the situation would only escalate.

I wandered into the living room and laid on the couch, resting because apparently Matt wasn't going to let me do anything but rest anyway. It was going to be a long day, laying here, doing nothing and Matt barely speaking to me, not that I blamed him. I was so stupid.

"Sit up." Matt announced walking in.

I sat up and he sat down, not next to me, there was a space between us.

"How long have you known Lana?" He asked.

I shrugged. "A few weeks."

"Were you going to tell me?" He asked, glaring at me.

"Obviously." I said sarcastically.

He sighed. "Why didn't you tell me?" He asked. "I mean this is something I thought you would have told me straight away."

"I was just thinking." I said quietly, looking away. I didn't like seeing him look so mad. "You know."

"No actually I don't." He said. "So explain it to me Lana, what were you thinking?" I opened my mouth to reply but he cut me off. "And do you want to tell me about Courtney, did she have something to do with you not telling me?"

Wait, Courtney, he knew about what Courtney had told me? Was it true? "Is it true?"

He frowned at me. "Is what true?"

"You and Courtney, having a baby."

"Oh for gad sake Lana." He snapped. "Are you serious?" He clenched his fists. "God Lana, when will you actually believe that I love you."

I didn't say anything because he was right, I shouldn't believe Courtney, but I couldn't help it, help the fact that I didn't feel I was good enough for Matt.

"What line of bullshit did she feed you this time?" He snapped. "And why the fuck do you believe it?"

"She said you met up on Tuesdays." I said, and now I'd started crying. "She said she was pregnant."

He sighed again. "Well I can assure you that if she is pregnant, that child is not mine. Now look Lana." He said in a softer voice. "Don't cry."

I looked at him and wiped my face. "I'm sorry." I cried.

"Lana." He said, moving closer to me. "I've had enough of Courtney, I really have, on Tuesday I go and play golf then I go and have a beer and 90% of the time you know what I'm doing on those Tuesdays?" I shook my head, I had no idea. "I'm thinking about you babe."

He reached over and pulled me to his chest. "Lana, you're all I think about okay, please believe me."

I nodded against his chest. "I do Matt, I know you love me, it's just she keeps popping up, whenever I feel like I'm happy, she appears."

He kissed the top of my head. "She does, and if she does it again, call me, straight away, I'll get a restraining order, honestly Lana, I've had enough."

"Okay." I whispered. "I'm sorry, for everything."

"How do you feel?" He asked, pulling back and looking at me. "How is everything?"

"The bleeding stopped." I whispered, looking at him.

He smiled. "We're having a baby."

"I guess we are." I murmured and he kissed me softly.

He smiled. "I'm happy Lana, really happy." He whispered. "Are you?"

I nodded, leaning up and kissing him. "So very happy."

"Good." He whispered. "Now today we're going to lay around, do nothing, look after you and our baby and then tomorrow, tomorrow we're going to talk about you quitting work."

I smiled, laying my head on his chest. It was time, time for me to quit my job, I would gladly do that for him and I would gladly do that for our baby.