Remenissions (Avenged Sevenfold)

Chapter 45

Lana's POV

I felt sick, the thought of Matt going to see Courtney made sick and I guessed now I understood how he felt last night. I couldn't help but worry that he would go over there and realise he'd made a terrible mistake and get back with Courtney and as I stood in the bathroom looking at myself in the mirror, I could understand why. Courtney was pretty glamorous and extremely attractive, even if her personality was shit, I on the other hand, I was a bit ordinary compared to her. If I had a choice I'd probably pick Courtney too.

I got dressed and went out to the living room. I was trying to find something to do, to keep myself busy while I was waiting, waiting to see if Matt actually came back. I thought about eating some breakfast, but the idea of food just made my stomach squeamish.

I was glad when Marty rang, it took my mind off of things, except she seemed to be asking a few questions and I wondered how much she knew. I was kind of glad we'd kept it to ourselves, well in case, just in case Matt had changed his mind. She asked us over for lunch and I agreed to go, it sounded fun, but I didn't agree for Matt because I didn't want to show up without him and then have to answer a million questions.

I was sitting on the couch thinking, chewing on my thumb nail when the door buzzer startled me. I jumped up, answering it.

"Hello?" I had no idea who it would be.

"It's me." Matt said. "Let me up." And I buzzed him up while feeling a little shocked.

I opened the door and watched him bound up the stairs.

"Hey." He said walking in and he kissed me quickly. "Well that was awkward."

"It was?" I asked, fearing what he was going to tell me.

"Yeah." He said shrugging. "She doesn't seem to get that we're over, but I don't care." He told me, pulling me into his arms. "She can think what she wants."

I smiled. "So, you broke up with her?"

He frowned. "Well yeah, I told you I was Lana." I nodded. "Lana, for god sake, can you please believe me when I say I want to be with you. I am not having some kind of crisis, okay?"

"Okay." I whispered as he kissed me softly.

"So what are we doing today?" He murmured, holding me close.

"Brian and Marty asked us over." I told him.

"And you said yes." He said, sounding disappointed.

"Well yeah. Why, did you want to do something?" I asked, looking up at him.

He shook his head, smiling. "It doesn't matter Lana, we have all the time in the world together, but yeah, I wanted to spend the day with you and only you."

"Oh." And I kind of felt bad. "I just wasn't sure what you were doing."

"I wanted to do you." He murmured and I felt myself blushing. Shit, sex, the thought made me feel all tingly and I kind of wished I had told Marty no. "But it's okay babe." He whispered, kissing me again. "Anticipation will only make it more exciting." And I felt a shiver run down my spine. "So should we get ready? Are we swimming?" And I could only nod, I'd lost my voice.

Fuck, sex. I wondered what it would be like, sex with Matt. God would it be awkward? And I thought of Matt's body and I thought, no, it wouldn't be awkward for me. I couldn't wait to feel his skin on mine, to touch him, to have him touch me.

"Lana?" Matt said and I looked at him blushing. "What are you thinking about?"

"Nothing." I said heading into the bedroom, but I was thinking about everything.

We got ready and headed over to Brian's, well Marty and Brian's, she'd virtually moved in.

"Are we telling them?" Matt asked as we got out of the car.

I shrugged. "I don't know, maybe we should see what happens."

"God." He said kissing me. "I just want everyone know already." And I smiled as we walked to the door.

Marty let us in and we all headed out the back, the guys grabbing a beer and getting in the pool. It was a glorious day and I was pleased that we had a couple more days of good weather before it became cool.

Marty and I sat there, watching the guys and I felt a bit like I was in the Spanish inquisition, with all the questions she was firing at me and I was more than glad when the guys asked us to join them in the pool.

I stood up and started to pull my dress over my head and I noticed Matt was standing there, watching me. I couldn't help but smile, it felt nice seeing him admiring my body, I liked that he seemed to like it and I wanted him to like it a little more.

I wandered over to the edge of the pool and dipped my foot in, testing the temperature.

"You coming in?" Matt asked me, looking up at me.

I bit my lip and shrugged, trying to look seductive, but probably failing. "Maybe." I said sitting on the edge and smiling at him.

"Just fucking get in." Marty snapped, jumping in and looking at me, raising her eyebrows.

I slipped slowly in, watching Matt watching me. "It feels nice." I said softly.

"Oh yeah it does." Matt mumbled, staring at my boobs. He was like a sixteen year old boy and I would have sworn he'd never seen boobs before.

We all swam around, Marty and Brian mucking around, me swimming by Matt and 'accidentally' brushing against him.

"You tease." He murmured at one point and I just grinned at him, swimming away.

"I'm hungry." Brian finally announced. "Let's go get the food woman." He said to Marty and I watched as they climbed out, heading inside.

I felt an arm slip around my waist and Matt put his lips to my ear. "Lana, what are you doing?" He murmured.

"What?" I asked smiling.

"Don't what me." He murmured, kissing my neck.

I turned around and placed my hands on his chest. "Matt, what are you talking about?" I asked, smiling up at him.

He groaned, kissing me. "Fuck Lana." He murmured against my lips. "You're so beautiful."

"Am not." I whispered and he pulled me closer.

"God yes you are." He murmured between kisses. "You are beautiful and right now you are driving me insane woman."

I closed my eye's, wrapping my arms around his neck.

"Lana." He murmured. "You are beautiful and believe me when I tell you I love you." He whispered and I smiled. "And you need to stop teasing me, because I won't be able to control myself."

"Okay." I murmured kissing him. "Fine I'll stop."

"Oh fuck." He said, smiling. "Don't stop, please, I didn't mean it. But fuck, I cannot wait to get you home."

"Why what are you going to do?" I asked him innocently and instead of answering he held me close, kissing me.

"Ew, get a fucking room." Brian called out and we pulled apart. Well the cat was out of the bag now.

"Fine." I said, pulling away, but only a bit, I preferred to be in Matt's arms.

"Let's eat." Marty said walking out and raising her eyebrows at us.

I ignored her and turned to get out of the pool. As I started to walk to the steps Matt grabbed my arm, putting his lips to my ear.

"I'm going to do lots of things to you when we get home." He murmured. "So much."

I smiled and he kissed me again. We climbed out of the pool and started having lunch. I was kind of eating quickly, but I couldn't help myself. I had an ulterior motive.

I really wanted to get home. Matt smiled at me and reached down, squeezing my leg. The sooner the better.