Remenissions (Avenged Sevenfold)

Chapter 40

Lana's POV

Oh my god he was kissing me. Matt was kissing me and god it felt so nice.

"We should have breakfast." I blurted, pulling away. I was feeling overwhelmed, confused and I didn't know what to do.

Matt looked at me strangely, agreeing, then he brushed his lips across mine again.

I got up and went into the kitchen, opening the fridge. Eggs would do, I could cook eggs, eggs would keep me busy, eggs would keep my mind off of what just happened.

I started cracking them into a bowl, and my hands wouldn't stop shaking, I was making a mess and I wanted to cry into my fucking bowl of eggs because right now I was confused.

"Lana." Matt said softly and he was right behind me.

What did he want from me? What was he doing?

He put his hands on my shoulders and turned me to face him gently, asking me to look at him. I didn't want to look at him because I was afraid he would see everything in my eye's, all of hurt, all of my pain, all of my feelings.

I raised my face to look at him and he pulled me into his arms, wrapping me up tightly and then he did it again, he kissed me. I closed my eye's and oh god it felt so good. I reached up and wrapped my arm's around his neck, returning his kiss.

"Do you see." He murmured against my lips.

I nodded, but I honestly had no idea what he was talking about, I just wanted him to keep kissing me.

"Do you understand?" He asked, pulling back and looking down at me.

I was watching his lips, when he was talking I couldn't do anything but look at his lips. He was asking me if I understood, if I understood that I was the reason he did what he did. What did he do? The wedding? What?

My phone snapped me out of it and I grabbed it, mumbling something to Matt. I felt dazed, like he'd put me under some kind of spell and when I saw it was Nick I rejected his call, I did not want to talk to him right now.

"We have to talk to them." Matt said and I nodded, of course we were going to have to talk them, that made sense. He was my boyfriend and Courtney was his fiancé, I just wasn't sure what we were meant to talk to them about.

He did it again, he pulled me back into his embrace, looking at me. "Us." He murmured.

Fuck, he kissed me again and did he just say us?

"Us?" I asked him, wrapping my arms around him. God, I just couldn't not touch him, we were so close, kissing and it felt so right.

Matt was saying that there was an us. All the nights I'd dreamt of this moment, and here he was telling me exactly what I wanted to hear, that he wanted me, as much as I wanted him and I wanted to cry, I really did.

I stood there, letting him kiss me, feeling a wave of relief sweep over me. Me and Matt. I couldn't help but smile.

"Are we going to have breakfast?" He murmured softly against my lips.

I wasn't sure about him, but I was already having what I wanted. "I guess."

"So Lana." He said smiling down at me. "What are you going to do with all those eggs?"

I turned and looked at the bowl. He was right. I'd cracked nearly ten of them. What the fuck was I going to do with ten eggs.

"Scrambled?" I suggested, and he kissed my forehead.

"What ever you want."

So I made an excessive amount of scrambled eggs, not that it mattered, Matt just kept on eating them and while he finished I went in a had a quick shower, getting changed.