Remenissions (Avenged Sevenfold)

Chapter 83

Martina's POV

"Are we going or what?" I asked, looking at Brian, Rachel and Zack. "I'm kind of sick of standing around waiting."

"What about the other's?" Brian asked frowning at me.

"They can meet us down there."

He opened his mouth to protest, but Johnny arriving in the lobby interrupted him.

"Hey gnome." I said as Johnny walked over to greet us. "Can you tell the other's we've gone?"

"Yeah whatever." He said shrugging. "I'll wait for them."

I looked at Brian and smiled. "That's settled then." I told him.

He mumbled something and turned, heading for the car. It was last show of their European tour tonight. The whole tour had been good, I'd really enjoyed myself and I was a little sad that we would be heading back to America the day after tomorrow. At least we still had tomorrow to look around and I was hoping Zack and Rachel would want to do something. I'd really enjoyed hanging out with Rachel, we'd become great friends.

Brian sat in the front on the trip down and I was a little pissed because I had to sit in the back with Zack and Rachel, listening to them whispering and shit.

"I personally cannot wait for the party tonight." Zack said on the drive over.

"Me too." I told him smiling out the window.

"I'm just looking forward to having a few drinks, hanging with you guy's and not having to worry about performing for at least a week." He went on.

"Yeah me too." Brian said from the front. "I just wished Matt and Lana were coming."

I frowned and continued to look out the widow.

"Why aren't they?" Zack asked.

"Don't know." Brian muttered and that ended the conversation.

Why would Brian know why they weren't going anyway? They probably weren't going because they were too into each other to even know there was a party on tonight. They were always all over each other, it made me sick.

The rest of the trip to the venue was quiet and once we got there we made our way inside.

"I'm going to look around." Brian said s soon as we got there and he turned and walked off, Zack following.

I grabbed Rachel's hand and pulled her to the side of the stage, Of Mice were just finishing up and I was a fan, so I wanted to watch the end of their show.

It was great and as they walked off the stage I stood there smiling, kind of wishing they'd at least say hi, but they didn't, so Rachel and I just stood there, waiting for our guy's to come on.

I looked around, wondering where Brian had gotten too when I saw Matt and Lana arrive. As usual they walked in holding hands and grinning like teenagers.  Did they always have to look so fucking happy?

"Hey." I said, grabbing Rachel's arm as she started walking away. "Where are you going?"

"Oh." She said looking back at me. "I was going to say hi to Lana."

"Does she look like she wants to be interrupted?" I asked her as Matt and Lana started kissing.

"Oh yeah." She laughed. "I guess you're right."

Yeah I was right, because that's all they ever did. Ugh, I needed to stop thinking about Lana, she was ruining my mood and once again I looked around, wondering where Brian was, I could see the other's but Brian wasn't in sight. The guy's were due to go on shortly and I looked over and saw Lana talking to the wife of Aaron and I frowned. Why was she always so fucking lucky? And ugh, Matt approached them, kissing her again.

Suddenly the stage went dark and the show started and I watched them frowning. Brian hadn't even come over to see me, he always came over to see me before a show started, it was tradition, well it was, but now it would seem it wasn't.

I tried to enjoy the show but I was bothered by Brian and then I was bothered by Lana and that girl. They were standing there, singing, laughing, with their hands on Lana's belly. Christ, they looked ridiculous. Lana was pregnant, what was so fucking special about that?

The show ended in true  Avenged style with loads of fire works and I smiled as they ran off stage. I was proud, the guy's had done great this tour and they should all be proud.

I followed Rachel as she made her way over to them and Brian looked up and smiled at me.

"Great show." I told him smiling.

"Thanks babe." He grinned. "I'd hug you but sweat."

I looked at him, and yeah he was sweaty, he knew I wasn't a fan of hugging when he was sweaty.

Laughing interrupted us and I looked over to see that Matt had picked Lana up and she had her arms wrapped around his neck, kissing him. Apparently sweat didn't bother her.

"I'll clean up and we can head to the party." Brian told me so I stood around waiting.

Rachel stood with me, talking but I wasn't really paying attention. I was watching Lana, she was with that girl again and they hooked their arm's through each others and walked off, to look for their guy's I presumed.

"I am going to get shit faced." I said to no one in particular, because that's what I needed, a big fucking drink.

We arrived at the place the party was at with Zack and Rachel and when we headed inside I was shocked to see how many people were here.

"I'll get us a drink." Zack announced, holding out his hand to Rachel and I watched them head off towards to the bar.

"There's Matt and Lana." Brian pointed out to me. "Let's go over."

I shook my head. "No, you go, I'll wait here." I told him. "What the hell is Lana wearing anyway, that dress show's everything and she really doesn't have the body for that anymore."

"Marty stop." Brian suddenly snapped and I looked at him wide eyed. "Enough, I'm sick of it."

"Sick of what?" I snapped back.

"Sick of this, of you." He said, sounding pissed. "You've absolutely ruined this tour for Lana, poor Lana, what did she do, nothing, she did nothing to you."

I snorted at him. I had no reply.

"I'm sick of it Marty, I really am and Matt well I can assure you he's had enough of it too." He went on.

"Oh poor Matt." I said sarcastically. "God forbid that someone doesn't like his queen."

"Marty." Brian cried. "God. Where is this coming from?"

I looked at him and shook my head, biting my lip. I didn't want to cry, I'd managed to avoid crying this whole tour, if I stayed away from Lana I didn't cry and that had been good, not crying had been good.

"Marty baby." Brian murmured and he pulled me into his arms.

"Oh Brian." I said, and now the tears had started. "She has everything and she's so fucking happy and it makes me sick."

"Marty please." He murmured in my ear.

"And the one thing she has I can't give you." I sobbed. "All I want is baby."

"I know baby." He murmured, kissing me softly. "I know Marty."

It sucked, it really did, seeing your best friend get everything you wanted. She looked so happy and I was jealous, I was so jealous that I couldn't see straight. I had ruined our friendship and now, now I was on the verge of ruining my marriage.