Remenissions (Avenged Sevenfold)

Chapter 27

Lana's POV

"Well." Nick called, coming through the back door of the apartments. "I'm heading to work babe."

I pulled my headphones out of my ears and looked at him. "Have fun."

"I'm sure Lana." He said smiling. "Anyway, I won't finish until late, so I'll see you tomorrow yeah?"

"Of course." I said smiling up at him.

He leant down and kissed me softly and I closed my eye's, enjoying it.

"See you." He murmured, turning and leaving me by myself again.

I put my headphones back in and closed my eye's, enjoying the peace and the sun. I was out the back, at the pool in my apartment complex and honestly I was basically the only person who ever used it, which was fine by me, I enjoyed the peace and quiet.

Well I thought I was the only one who used, but now I heard the gate open. I thought about looking to see who it was, but I figured if I kept my eye's closed I wouldn't have to make conversation, and I didn't want to talk to anyone today.

I saw a shadow fall across me and I was a little startled. I opened my eye's to see Matt standing there, smiling down at me.

"I figured you'd be out here." He said, sitting on the lounge next to me.

I pulled my headphones out again and smiled. "Yeah, it's such a nice day."

"Mind if I join you?" He asked me. "Wanna hang out, I mean if you have nothing else to do."

"I have absolutely nothing to do." I told him. "And yes, I want to hang out." And I did.

"Cool." He said pulling off his shirt and laying back. "Where's Nick?"

"He's working today and tonight so I'm just sitting here trying to get a decent tan."

"You already have a decent tan Lana." He said laughing and he was right, I did like laying about in the sun.

"Where's Courtney?" I asked.

"Wedding stuff." He murmured.

"Of course." I said. "And besides you be grateful that she's doing it all and your ass get's to hang out with me."

"Oh I am, believe me."

We both fell silent, thinking. I was thinking about the wedding and I was sure Matt was also.

"Not long now Matthew." I said, looking over at him, breaking the silence.

"Not long at all." He said, smiling at me.

It was this weekend, the wedding and everyone was excited, it was going to be a great day and I was continually telling myself I would enjoy it.

I'd accepted it. I'd accepted that Matt was getting married. It took me a few weeks but I was at peace with the fact that he was in love and he was marrying her and I felt so much better doing it. Once I accepted that I'd been able to move forward with my relationship with Nick. I was enjoying it, him, we really did get on well and it was blossoming nicely.

Did I still love Matt? I looked at him, yeah I did and I guessed that some place in my heart would always flutter a little when I saw him but he was getting married and I was happy for him, happy that he was going to be happy. That's all I wanted, Matt to be happy.

"Want to swim?" He asked standing up and I nodded, yeah I did want to swim.

And we swam, all afternoon. It was great, just like it always had been, just Matt and I. There was no mention of boyfriends or girlfriends, there was no talk of weddings, it was just me and him, the way it always had been.

We stayed in the pool for hours, until we were all wrinkly, until my voice was croaky from laughing so much.

"Want to get a pizza?" He suggested and we headed upstairs to my apartment.

We put on a movie, not really watching, just talking and eating our pizza and I was happy, I truly was. Matt and me were back to what we'd always been, best friends.

"Do you have to be somewhere?" I asked him, after I'd cleaned up our mess and looked at the time, realising it was getting late.

"Nope." He said, laying back on the couch. "I don't have to be anywhere so put on another movie that we can watch."

I put on a movie and looked at Matt, he held out his arms and I laid down on the couch with him. He wrapped his arms around me and we both stared at the screen.

It was nice, wrapped up in his arms. I felt safe and secure and I felt like nothing was changing, that nothing would come between us. I liked that feeling, I liked it a lot.

"Are you excited Matt?" I whispered, wondering.

"About what?" He asked, grabbing my hand.

"The wedding silly, are you excited that you're getting married?" And I wondered because he never spoke about the wedding, never.

"Nervous." He whispered and I squeezed his hand.

"Of course you're nervous." I whispered, turning over so I could face him. "You're getting married."

"Yeah." He murmured, looking at me.

I looked back at him and smiled, he returned my smiled, brushing a loose strand of hair off of my cheek.

"It will be fine Matthew." I murmured. "Everything will be fine." And it would be. I had to believe that.

"Will it?" He whispered, pulling me closer to him.

I nodded, burying my face in his chest.

It was going to be fine. Matt was going to be fine. This wedding was going to be fine and more importantly I was going to be fine.

I was going to be fine, wasn't I?