Mellifluous Murmurs

Solitude

I work hard in my life 

I take in the pain with all my might

what they don't understand is that I slice my skin to pieces and strive

but the reason they're calling me out is to wonder why.

I have been walking the long road to freedom for my entire duration of breaths

they keep telling me that I'm almost there but I'm not even close

I keep thinking if this is worth the try

or should I go back now and perhaps reside in my past.

I'm confused, pained, tired.. I don't know where this is going to take me 

with all of my will and courage I shall carry the burdens that were given to be 

as a suffering 

as an act handing over

but I didn't budge, I carried it till the end.

And the funny thing is, I am not near the finish line 

I'll just walk this road till the end reaches me 

I have no say in what has passed or the line that is yet to come.

I'm just another ant that lives under a roof in this world

I am fortunate enough and gratitude sprouts the ignition from beneath my chest 

I try to pray and kneel down to seek myself 

what I don't know is that loneliness has become apart of me

I am loneliness, that is my name

Solitude is my middle name 

my last name is unknown.

But I don't betray and I won't neglect you as you expect me to

I shall cherish you

Even if you fear the dark 

or if you dread pain 

or perhaps have forebodings towards certain elements the world has kept from your reach

I am here,

even though I am all alone.