Mellifluous Murmurs

She Told Me

She told me that I was a burden to carry in her life

a huge rock just resting on her shoulders

with weight adding on her balance

I looked around to find her twins; doing so with no hesitation 

or the ability to think twice and beyond.

She told me that she needed to leave me behind

where there was closure, care, education, a home..

I thought she made up my home

she was just trying to break the bricks onto quarters and halves

as I stood there and wondered what went through her mind. 

She told me that I'd be okay, 

but look at me now

I'm torn

broken 

I think too much 

I have defined devastation and rephrased the words of the dictionary, 

most of all, helpless is me 

I am helpless

at least it didn't turn its back and run for the hills

not like she did.

She told me that she loved me 

but I didn't believe..

Now I understand that freedom is an understatement 

because it seemed like her offspring did affect her as so of being locked in a cage

It opened my eyes to destiny;

pure hunger for curiosity 

I cried a lot and prayed for no sins to occur from me

but this is my life's trial, 

my hiatus. 

This 

is what she told me.