Mellifluous Murmurs

She's Gone.. Forever

I shall take this next step in my life

and try to leave her behind

but my heart was too good to say no

but too bad to give in.

I tried to engage in conversation,

anything to fulfill her imagination,

nothing to make this all come into one solution of a cessation...

But it was a phone call away and my heart was beatless today...

But I now realize that she will only remain a vanished memory

I cry to know that she was once apart of my life

yet I was abruptly taken from a fairytale to reality

I burned my skin on my own mantel

hoping that perhaps she wouldn't beat me up 

into this fragile kitten

with a rather meek joy to the world.

She's agreed to let me go until death do us part

and there was a hint in my voice that I was about to cry

I kept it in to show her that I had a face not spoiled ever so painfully by tears

but I turned my head and felt every shatter in my heart.

I cried and cried, not because I tasted her agony

but because I savoured mine.

My soul was fed to me by her in a tasteless platter and a displeasing stab..

My chest was bleeding; pouring and my breathing was limited.

"She will only exist in my everlasting dreams..."

That's right.

In my everlasting dreams...

I woke up seconds later 

somewhere else

but this time,

not at home.

I was dead

because I was the cud 

and she spit me out

I was dead 

because I have turned into mud 

and this gave her life a distasteful drought.