Mellifluous Murmurs

Gone With The Wind

I left just because I didn't want to stab my loved ones with thorns

I have too much to say, a whole lot to do

I never wanted to cause any pain, agony...

I try to calm down the wound

but if my touch screens over, it'll bleed and pour out the intestines of one's body

I learned to love from afar

even from distance

no talking

no speaking

no feeling

I learned to watch and mesmerize

even if it wasn't for me; I understood the ways

I knew that someone would understand

maybe forgive the consequences

but all they thought was how they felt

how they saw things

how they saw me

a person that didn't deserve what they were given...

they didn't know that behind these big brown hazel eyes of mine

there hides a life of a little girl

my inner child that is crying

weeping

sobbing

chanting

all at the same time in unity of simultaneous connections and units

I am trying for one day you just hold my hand and look into my eyes

kill my gaze while you bore into my curious mind

but you wouldn't dare to even sneak a glance at me

it's like you're staring at a fruit gone rotten; a girl gone ugly..

to you I do know I am that ugly girl

compared to the cheerful ones that would even aggravate

I decided to leave you the peace

because deep down I know that you feel me

but you are resisting that feeling

you are avoiding my touch

you are avoiding me

but what you don't understand is what I saw

I reap what I see

and I scar myself upon what comes upon me

your forgiveness is a lot for me to take

but all I can give is appreciation; from me

and I thank you for cherishing your virtue

patience

even love towards me

you still remain a place in my heart

even if I will never be or dont deserve a place in yours.