I left just because I didn't want to stab my loved ones with thorns
I have too much to say, a whole lot to do
I never wanted to cause any pain, agony...
I try to calm down the wound
but if my touch screens over, it'll bleed and pour out the intestines of one's body
I learned to love from afar
even from distance
no talking
no speaking
no feeling
I learned to watch and mesmerize
even if it wasn't for me; I understood the ways
I knew that someone would understand
maybe forgive the consequences
but all they thought was how they felt
how they saw things
how they saw me
a person that didn't deserve what they were given...
they didn't know that behind these big brown hazel eyes of mine
there hides a life of a little girl
my inner child that is crying
weeping
sobbing
chanting
all at the same time in unity of simultaneous connections and units
I am trying for one day you just hold my hand and look into my eyes
kill my gaze while you bore into my curious mind
but you wouldn't dare to even sneak a glance at me
it's like you're staring at a fruit gone rotten; a girl gone ugly..
to you I do know I am that ugly girl
compared to the cheerful ones that would even aggravate
I decided to leave you the peace
because deep down I know that you feel me
but you are resisting that feeling
you are avoiding my touch
you are avoiding me
but what you don't understand is what I saw
I reap what I see
and I scar myself upon what comes upon me
your forgiveness is a lot for me to take
but all I can give is appreciation; from me
and I thank you for cherishing your virtue
patience
even love towards me
you still remain a place in my heart
even if I will never be or dont deserve a place in yours.
YOU ARE READING
Mellifluous Murmurs
Poesia❁ Freedom is allowing the crisp air to guide you through this forest we can call society. ❁