Mellifluous Murmurs

Long Way Home

I was on the street

barefoot

when I found myself lost 

between enemy lines.

I found that I was on break 

between heaven and hell

and its magnetic fields were making me 

stand still between the two breakthroughs.

I couldn't believe my heart 

because all what I have been told was a lie 

either because of my own welfare 

or to cover up and sugar coat the ugly scenes.

As a kid I would cry

and ask where she's gone 

but now I know where she's been 

I was fed a taste of her life 

and my reflexes spit it onto her face back at once 

because I didn't know that my own flesh and blood

could abandon me 

for strangers 

in need. 

Ever since 

I've been devastated 

and still am heartbroken 

depressed even 

because I once looked up to her 

when she's always looked down at me 

in shame and misery;

maybe even regret

because when I looked into her eyes 

I grew cold 

and I felt far 

maybe because it was...

Or maybe because I am.