Meant to be

Day 20

Callie's POV
It's 10 days to go but these are the worst. I've called sick for work today. I just don't feel like doing this today. I miss Arizona and I miss her arms around me and I miss our conversations and I miss her telling me everything will be fine. I miss my girlfriend. There 20 days have been the worst of my life but in the last week I realized why Arizona needed this. We need to figure out who we are apart so we can be better together but it's so hard.
It's about 10 am when I hear the front door open.
"Callie?" Arizona screams rushing upstairs. I run to the door of my room.
"What happened?" She stops walking when she sees me. I don't respond. We can't talk. Arizona knows it.
"You're sick? Bailey said you called in sick!"
I nod no.
"Then what? Callie talk to me!" He knows I can't.
We just stand there looking at each other.
"Are you ok?" Arizona asks.
I nod.
Arizona nods back and runs out of the house as quickly as she came in. I fall to the floor and cry. She was worried about me. She came back home from the hospital just to check on me. I should've had said something. I was desperate do say something but no words came out. I couldn't. The thought of having to start over and spend another 30 days without her hurt me more.

Arizona's POV
When I get home tonight I notice Callie hasn't eaten because the kitchen is as clean as it was this morning.
I cook my dinner and Callie comes into the kitchen. Callie notices I'm cooking and just stares at my hands. It hurts like hell not to cook for her. Not to take care of her. I finish my cooking and grab my plate and cup and walk to the dinner table. I'm already done when Callie comes in with the meal she prepared for herself on her plate so I stand up. I could feel Callie's eyes on my back as I walked to the kitchen and I broke inside. I closed the kitchen door and fell to my knees.
"Just 10 more days, just 10 more days" I thought to myself.
I got up and cleaned the kitchen and then went to bed.
About 30 minutes later I notice Callie passing by my bedroom. Callie stops at the door. We exchange looks, like we do every night.m but this night Callie quickly breaks the eye conversation and walks to her room. I wait a little bit for her to settle down and get into bed and I walk to her room.
She wasn't expecting me. Callie was looking at the frame with my picture of me that was on the hall. I didn't even notice it was gone, she must have taken it today. Callie notices me and puts the frame back on her nightstand quickly like a kid who was just caught eating candy in the middle of the night.
I walk to her bed and sit at the end of it. I move my hand to touch her leg but then I move it back to my lap. I can't touch her. Callie sits up on the bed.
"Arizona.." Callie pleads. I look at the ground and then I get up. I walk to my bedroom and close the door. I start to cry and I know Callie can hear me.
"It's just 10 more days!" Callie screams. Her voice is broken like her heart and my soul.

Day 25
The last 5 days seemed like 5 months. At this point we just don't go home anymore. We barry ourselves with work and we sleep at the hospital. Last night all the oncall rooms were taken so I had to go in to the one where Callie was sleeping.
I got in and Callie looked up at me.
"All the others are occupied, I'm just going to take the top bunk" I told her.
Callie moved closer to the wall and opened the sheets as a sign for me to get in bed to her. I sat down on her bed and it took all my self control not to lay down or touch her. I just stood back up and laid on the top bunk.

Callie's POV
"Callie!" I woke up and noticed Arizona was talking in her sleep.
"Callie, Callie!" Arizona screamed.
"Callie please don't go! I love you!" Arizona screamed again. She was getting more and more agitated in to bed.
I stood up to look at her. Her cheeks were red and she had tears coming down her eyes.
"Please don't leave me Callie. I love you! I can't live without you! Callie.." Arizona screamed and started to cry harder.
I couldn't touch her or talk to her so I just screamed back.
"Arizona!" I screamed as loud as I could.
Arizona opened her eyes and sat up. She looked around confused an wiped the tears of her eyes.
"I was having a nightmare. I'm sorry I woke you up!" Arizona said.
I blew her a kiss and laid back down.
Arizona stud up from the bed and walked to the door. Before leaving she spoke.
"I'm going back to work. I'm sorry I woke you up." And she left.
She didn't have to leave. I was hoping she wouldn't leave. Hearing her cry like that broke me into a million pieces. I couldn't go back to sleep now. Seeing her hurt was the worst.
I rested back on the bed and thought to myself "just five more days, just five more days".