Where I'm Supposed To Be ( Sidemen Fanfic )

Chapter Eighteen

*trigger warning: mentions of abuse, cutting, writing of cutting and blood*

We had all been talking and hanging out for a long time and it was now 11:00 pm.

"Well I guess I should show you where you will be sleeping then," I said as I stood up and headed for the stairs with Nikki following. We got to my room and I opened the door and helped carry in some of her bags inside.

"This is where you will be sleeping but during the day I'm going to have to be in here to record some videos and stuff," I said and she just laid down on the bed and nodded.

"It's so nice to be away from mo-, I mean Shannon for once," Nikki said with a smile.

"I am going to ask you a question and I want you to answer it honestly, okay?" I said as I sat down on the bed. She sat up and looked my in the eyes signaling me to continue.

"Has Shannon ever hit you?" I asked. She immediately looked toward the floor. She sighed.

"Yes she has," she said in a small voice.

"Where," I said sounding more like a command than a question. I was beginning to become angry and it was apparent in my voice, I could tell by the way Nikki backed up a bit. She slowly lifted up her shirt sleeves and there were cuts and bruises all over both of her arms. I just looked at them and rubbed my thumb over a couple. She then put her legs on the bed and lifted he pant legs and they looked the same as her arms. She then lifted her shirt and her stomach had very large bruises covering it.

"Thank you, goodnight," I said as if I were in a trance. I walked towards Simon's room and noticed her was in there sitting in his gaming chair. I closed the door behind me and he looked up and I lost it. I started crying and bawling. He stood up and hugged me.

"Lee, what's wrong?" He asked sounding concerned. I couldn't get words to form so I shook my head and he seemed to understand. "Let me know when you have calmed down, but one question, does it have to deal with Nikki?" I nodded. He led us over to his bed and pulled me into his lap. He pulled out his phone to do something while I sat in his lap and cried. He put his phone down on the floor and wrapped his arms around me and rocked us back and forth slowly.

There was a knock at the door. "Can I come in?" It was Josh.

"Come in," Simon said. He must have texted Josh earlier. He walked over and sat down next to us on the bed. After a while I had calmed down.

"Okay tell us what this is about," Josh said and he noticed that I had calmed down.

I took a deep breath. "Shannon hits her," I said and new tears started to fall down my face. Their faces had shock and anger on them.

"How bad is it," he said, his voice dull.

"Bruises and cuts cover her arms and legs and her stomach is all bruises," I said and Josh stood up and I followed him across the hall into my room where Nikki was sitting on the bed. Josh walked in and stood in front of her and I stood in the door way with Simon behind me.

"Show me," Josh demanded. It sounded like he was on the verge of crying as well. She lifted her sleeves, pant legs, and front of her shirt. Simon and Josh gasped.

"Okay now that I've shown you my wounds, lift up your sleeves, Lee," Nikki said with tears welling up in her eyes now too. I wrapped my arms around me and looked down at the floor. "Now, Lee!" She said with some fear in her voice. I slowly reached down to the hoodie that I was wearing and slowly pulled up the sleeve. I pulled it up to my elbow and the whole underside of my arm was covered in horizontal scars. I closed my eyes and held my breath.