Hiding My Pain (Completed)

Chapter One✓ Hello New Life

"Let go, forget the burdens of the past, the past can't be changed" -unknown

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Dawn•

Ever feel like staying in bed and not move a muscle? Like the bed itself has some sort of spell that bounds you to the bed.

With the thought of just staying in bed where safe and comfort lies, a comfort that I kindly really need in life.

But....unfortunately you have to get up and get ready for the day, a day that sometimes never seems to end or better yet a day that  seems to drag on , making you're life more miserable then it all ready is.

That is where I'm at, having to leave the only comfort in my life,  I stood up from my bed dreading the day that has yet to even begun -today, the day of a new beginning , a new life , a new person with the same memories, the day my family and I move to a new place to leave the past behind,

A past that marked its way behind our hearts that would burn when we remember. A past that shouldn't have happened,

But it did, and I couldn't stop it. I couldn't do anything about it, I couldn't , I was helpless and still am.

The past that was now a part of us for the rest of our lives until we take a our last breath.

My aunt,brother and I lived alone in a big house,  my mother and father were a successful business partner who succeeded in mostly everything they set their minds on, but like those rich kid kind of parents who set their whole life in work rather then their kids, my parents weren't like that , always putting their kids first even when it could cost so much,  even though we were rich we were thankful for everything, my mother and father enjoyed working together,  my siblings and I  weren't obnoxious about our wealth nor did we brag about it , we appreciated everything and one another , unlike most rich kids who prefer to be obnoxious and spend their wealth in things that could ruin life.

My parents, my self , my brother and my sister  , all one happy family , yes we had our ups and downs but we were happy , content, enjoyed life with so much.

That is until the tragedy happened that left our family from five souls to two.

It wasn't just the two of us before, I had a father ,  a sister and a mother but sadly they are all gone, buried beneath the cold earth. Leaving us so much to take, and everyday I wish I could turn back a time in life to undue the damage I've done ,

But the past is behind and we all have to live with a burden.

I looked at my appearances in the mirror, brown dark hair,hazel eyes, 5'7 pretty tall and 17, I've gotten my looks from my mothers side but my eyes from my father's, I loved my eyes but it was before, where it was filled with happiness and love now it's only filled with pain and sarrow. 

I switched gears as I head towards the bathroom, getting ready to leave, while dragging myself at the same time.

You see what's left of my family and I wanted to leave the past behind, the past that  caused pain for three years, and now we decided we needed the break, so leaving the past behind was the only way, even though that past has made a permanent home in our heart and soul. 

I was thankful that I hadn't lost all of my family but at the same time pained that I've lost three of my family member.

I sigh as I began to exit my bathroom for clothes.

I've finished everything I needed then head towards the kitchen, passing my brother along the way who gave a me a reassuring smile,  that tells me everything was going to be okay,  but was it really?,  along with a squeeze on my shoulder we descend to our new home.

Jason and I are pretty close, there were three of us and we actually all three  were tight,

There was Me,Jason and Emma, Jason had dark blond hair half of my mothers and half of my fathers, grey  eyes, and was 6'1, he was the oldest, Emma was the youngest, she was beautiful with her blond hair and somehow blue eyes, she was the beauty of us all, I had always envied her, but as of now all I have of her are memories,

now it was just Jason and I with few problems,

I returned a smile back at him, and held his hand as we descended towards the kitchen where my aunt who's taken the role as our  mother was talking on the phone while placing IHOP breakfast on the table,

I sat next to my brother who quickly dug into the bag, while my aunt drank her coffee.

After breakfast I got  into my car and started the engine but before I left-I took one last glance at my old house where I grew up,

where every memories were sealed,

Where every laughter were shared

every pain shared

Every happiness created, 

but most of all,

where the past that will never be forgotten lies.

With that I drove out the drive way and head for a new beginning, a new begining that I soon will have to create with what's left of my family,  creating new happiness,  new memories, new laughter, new pain but we will all carry the past on our backs,  not forgetting every detail of it,  a past that led our lives to a point of no return but gladly we returned with barely enough strength to carry on. My new life will soon begin and a new chapter to unfold,  I just hope that this life will help me become who I was before and or created the better version of myself along with healing our family bond tighter then we ever had.

Creating a new life with myself, Jason and Aunt, I pray we make it through life. 

Goodbye old life.

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I really wanted to make at super long but I ran out of details for this chapter so I couldn't really,  but I hope y'all enjoy this chapter and continue to read on.

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