Hiding My Pain (Completed)

Chapter Twenty Four√ Pain

"Pain. Something so familiar that most tend to get addicted to it."
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Dawn-
Last week's prank was no doubt hilarious.  Damien had been on my heels every corner that he gets near me, attempting to get "back" at me,  but the reminder of his video that could potentially go viral if he were to make a move. Scott had recently found out about the video when he attempted to kidnapped my Nutella jars,  because we all know that my Nutella are mine.  I wouldn't have given him a chance but since I was in a pretty decent mood I decided to him give him mercy.  

Now I sat in the office waiting for our lawyer. Today was the day that we finalize the paper for our corporation.  Since Jason and I are the only living children,  the lawyer is finalizing who gets the corporation. 

Since I was still seventeen and won't be an adult for a couple of months, Kat is keeping the company at bay.  As for Jason,  the company was supposed to be his but he didn't want to be a part of it and wanted something more out there in the world.  Our parents actually discussed this before they died although before  Jason actually didn't mind taking over the company but that was before my parents died and I guess he didn't want to be in a place of reminder of what we've lost. 

I would want the same but I wanted to be the one or Jason to keep the company going.  Kat is doing a great job at it but I want her to live her life,  to resume her own business which was a fashion boutique that's recently been taken care by my cousin Alessandra,  Kats nineteen years old daughter.  Who's in search for a college but decided that working for a huge industry would actually benefit her.  And the fact that she refuses to use her mothers money for college. 

After minuets of waiting for the Lawyer he finally arrives. 

"Sorry to keep you guys waiting "

He sits down,  his grey suite matched with white tie. 

"Okay so Jason is eighteen right? "

Jason nods as Kat and I stay quietly. 

"Well it says here that Jason wants nothing to do with the company which your father was okay with.  So he listed that you get seven million out of the company for your own use and since Emma was supposed to acquire the company but since she's gone therefore Dawn you would have to "

Every word he spoke was like a stab on the heart but I couldn't blame him he was only doing his job.

"The company is worth fourty two point nine million dollars which could potentially attract some business partner but since your mother and father refuse to put you on for marriage, so that would be your own choice dawn. Until then Ms Delarosa  will have to take care of the business until your eighteenth which will be in three months.  "

The lawyers speaks on about the company,  what not. After hours of signing papers,  sitting on an uncomfortable chair we finally finished. 

We arrived home and was careful not to talk. All of us was still stuck back home. And this meeting with the lawyer was a sign that they truly were gone. A sign that most people were moving on. 

It's hard to move on when you've lost someone,  when that person spent most of their lives around you that you've gotten used to and all of a sudden they're​ taken away from you. 

My whole family was loved by a lot.

My father was loved and adored by his employees and I guess that's one of the reasons why our company was successful because he treated everyone with care and equal. My father treated his co-worker like they were just family. As for my mother,  my mother was the Queen of the hive except every ones in a while she would visit dad's office bringing trays of food for everyone,  made by her.  She was the mother hen.

But all those are only memories,  all of those are just a reminder of what life we used to have. 

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No one got out of their room for a few hours. Me as well,  I sat on the window looking out at the coming stars.

I've always been so jealous of the stars and moon.  They were far away. Away from all of these pain. They stay upon the sky shining so brightly and beautiful for everyone to admire. To stare and hope.

Sometimes I wished I could be the star.

The one who has no pain,  no memories and a hard past.

Sometimes. Most times. I just wish I can be a star that shines brightly and seem to not have a care.

But here I am. Surrounded with memories of the past, memories of the pain.

Although the past is in the past and most people to leave it there. I could never.  I could never just pretend like it didn't happened. Like I didn't go through it and barely made it out alive. Literally . 

Sometimes I think to myself that maybe all of this shit happened for a reason,  that there is something bigger and better for me waiting at the end of a thorned filled tunnel. Maybe I meant to go through those thorns but in the end I'll ended up with prickles of thrones buried deep within my skin as blood would drip down. And that by the time I made it through the tunnel,  by the time I'm finally out of the tunnel. My skin will heal.

And my heart will be whole ones again. 

But the voices in me only taunts of my foolish dream. 

And I let them.  I let it consume me whole.

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Next pov will be someone else. 

And yes I have updated this book for quit a while now and for that sorry but don't worry I'll try to update as quite as I can and that's pretty challenging since school is back and I'm barely having enough time on my own. I'm sure y'all could agree. 

Anyways more secrets are to be revealed in the upcoming chapters and also new characters introduce. 

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