Hiding My Pain (Completed)

°Chapter Thirty One°√ Memories

"Its easier to ask forgiveness then it is to get permission."
Grace Hopper.
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Dawn-

The kiss was something.

Something I couldn't describe but it was an amazing some thing, I thought maybe I'd enjoy it, cherish it, but it only lasted for thirty second before he broke it off, we looked in each others eyes, not one of us knew exactly what to say or do, I for sure didn't.

We stood there standing silently, seconds later we hear a commotion going on. Quickly we went back inside hoping that maybe it wouldve just been the boys and their football but inside when we had arrived in the living room we found no one, the TV was still on the same channel but the boys were nowhere to be seen. Damien and I looked at one another, confused, the awkwardess that was evident a couple of seconds ago only now lingers in the shadow. We walked towards the kitchen to find it empty , the closer we got to the front door the louder do we hear shoutings. Soon enough Damien and I finally made it out and in front of us, choes. I tried to look over people but they seem to be all taller.

In front of our lawn there stood a crowd of people, crowding into a mini circle. Damien and I walked further in, as I near reach the middle Kat's face appeared. A worried look laid upon her face.

"What's going on Kat?"

She avoids my eyes but tried to hold on to me.

"please Dawn don't go there"

Her expression told me I should obey her, follow her words but my desire and curiosity to know  had out won her as I feel myself being pulled by some kind of pull towards the commotion. The crowd that had appeared parted for me like the red sea.

I wasn't ready for what held for me, for what the scene before me displayed. The moment my eyes landed on the two figure fighting my breath hitched and I feel myself froze. I feel all those memories rushing. All I hear was the yelling from Jason, but that soon disappeared when his eyes landed on my own.

This couldn't be happening , not now , not now that I have finally be able to smile and laugh. Everything was ringing, I felt my heart beat going a mile a minuet.

The touch of someone brought me back to reality. I look up to see those eyes that belonged to Damien, eyes that told me to calm down and held so much. I see his lips moving but not hearing the words.

He repeated saying the words that I have yet to hear. The pounding of my heart blocked my hearing. My mind was going haywire, I tried to focus my attention to Damiens mouth , telling me to calm down.

Why was he telling me to calm down?

I finally realized why he was telling me to calm to the fact that I was breathing heavy. I attempted to nod and calm my heart.

After maybe a minuet or two of my anxiety spiking up I was able to breath a little better. I looked at Damien's concern face but then realized what I was about to face.

"You okay down?"

no I wasn't okay.

I wanted to tell him but I only nodded. Facing reality I crane my neck to see the sight behind him. Andy and Danny were holding back Jason, while Scott and Jacob held back him.

I hear Jason spewing with vemons.

"Why the hell are you here!"

He was covered in bruise and blood .

"You have the audacity to come to our home , to come to the house we are trying to built after you ruin ours, after you ruin hers! You're family is nothing but a goddamn snake you fucking should've died!!"

Jason's face was beat up but so was his. I couldn't get my legs to move forward before it truly could get out of hand. So I forced myself to walk to the scene causing everyone's head to turn towards me. Jason's and his including, Jason went to speak but I gave him the look. After two years of not being able to see him he shows up, after two years of building up the walls he shows up. To ruin my life, the life I'm barely workinhg on. I wasn't ready to face him, I ran away from him so that I could escape him, escape the amount of pain he inflicted. With my walls crumbling I turn to him.

Still he had that same blond hair and blue eyes that I used to love, used to admire and cherished. Now I felt nothing but hatred and anger towards him. Meeting his eyes as it soften. My mouth opens at its accord.

"Why are you here?'

My voice soft but echoed with so pain. So much memories.

"Dawn please let me talk'

I scoffed at this, what was he going to say to make me somehow forgive him, somehow take him back into my bruised and cracked life.

Nothing!

"So what?! , so you could ruin my life that I'm trying to build up after you ruin it ! nothing in this world you could ever do will make up for what you did! For what you caused ! , not even your pathetic excused of a life could make it up! Nothing!  Nothing in this world will bring back the people I loved, not evens hers'

I was seething with anger, seething with so much hatred for him. He's ruined my life so many times , caused so much pain and took so many of my family.

He took everything from me,

My family, my happy ever after. But most of all, he took her away from me.

The one thing that was supposed to make me happy even though he took part of it, the one thing he can never give back.

With anger inside me I took my fist and slam against his face making him stagger back, I had put so much and everything in that one punch.

My voice and heart was in so much pain. I held back the tears but I only failed. He tried to step forward but someone else has stopped him. Looking up I see Damien with a scowl on his face.

"Look man, obviously no one wants you here please just walk away"

I couldn't bare to look back at him.

"This is none of your goddamn business "

Liam spat, his words not so much as affecting Damien.

"it is when it comes to my girl"

Liam steps back and looks between Damien and I. I wasn't concern of Liam for a moment only the words that left his mouth. 

"I'm not done with you Dawn, no matter what"

With that Liam walks away. I ran upstairs to my room. shutting it with force. Then I slid down the door as rivers of tears flow.

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dun dun!!!!

Who is this mysterious Liam that caused her pain with so much?!

What about Damien and Dawn???

Anyways to found out dtay tune for the next chapter.

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