Hiding My Pain (Completed)

°Chapter Thirty Six°√Part 1- Revealed

"It takes two , too hold a relationship."
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Dawn-

It had taken two days to regain my memories, to regain everything. Everyone was thrilled to know that it all came back. But I wasn't. It reminded me that the one person I ran away from, hid from, had finally found me, knew that I was still alive.

I could tell everyone was curious to what had went down a few days ago but I wasn't prepared to talk about it, nor was Jason and Kat. They knew how much he ruined my life how much it still affected me everyday, I wasn't sure when I'd be able to, if it will happen. But the more days I come to realized that he's found me the more I lose my sanity, Its not only affected my suroundings but my family as well. I could always tell they wanted to say something to me, but each time I wouldn't even be there mentally.

"Dawn please you need to eat something it's not healthy."

Ones again Kat knocks on my door but I choose to ignore her. That's so far what I've beem doing, ignoring reality like a plague. Kat wasn't the only one I chose to ignore but Damien as well, I feared that if I choose to face him I'd have to spill my secrets to him, I fear that his eyes would pull me to the brink of spilling everything about me. True that I felt something towards him but that alone scared me. That what happened with Liam would happen with Damien. Even though deep down I know that Damien was different, is different but I could never find it in my heart to love again. I couldn't find the thought that I'd ever have the courage to try again in love.

"You know the silent treatmeant and not eating isn't going to get you anywhere"

The voice said scaring me, I turned to find Damien looking at the pictures of my family.

"You looked so happy here Dawn"

I knew the pictures that he was talking about, they were the pictures of my old self, the one who smiled and laughed and forgave everyone and everyhting, the one that felt guilt at the smallest mistakes and found positve in a negative things. But that was the past me, the old me.

"Dawn please talk to me, tell me what there is to tell, I'm here for you. You might not be able to believe me but I could see everything in your eyes. You are determined to hide those feelings but one thing about me is I could read people, and you are definitly not that hard to read, true there are moments when I could never figuere you out but now I could see it clearly, I could see the pain you have, the sad smiles you show, let me help you, let me heal you, I might not be able to heal you completely but atleast let me put a band aid until it heals completely, I could see yourself drawning in pain, I will swim to you and bring you back as hard as I can. Please Dawn"

I looked in his eyes and saw sincerity. I see the emotions reflecting off of him. Was I ready to let him in?, to let him know the real me, the ones happy girl. staring in his eyes I see the well too familiar emotion. With that I opened my heart and revealed my past.

"you want to know the real me, the past that I've tried to avoid. Then be prepared because my life is dark tale"

He sits next to me on the bed and takes my hands in his, engulfing me in warmth. And so I began my story.

"When I was thirteen I loved life, loved everything there is and everyone even those who hated me, I loved them all. I had amazing family who would do anything for eachother, two loving parents who wouldn't miss a single soccer, basketball any games. Two siblings who I would bicker with but the end of the day we loved eachother. One night during our usual family movie night we all decided to go to our favorite resturant. Thinking that it would be the usual fulfilling happy memory but I was wrong, the truck came at us so suddenly we didn't have to time to react. It hit us , first my parents. Then everything blackened and I found myself in a blazing fire, my parents body bloody. I don't remember much after that because then the second time I woke up was at a hospital. Words came that I lost them all, except Jason. So Jason and I tried our hardest to live our life, to be there for each other. But it was hard. Things turned to worse when I turned fifteen, you see I met this guy, god he made me feel like my old self, made me realized how lucky I was to survive the accident. We fell in love, shared our moments together, you see Damien I was so blinded by his charms I didn't realized the type of guy he was. I didn't realized the type of guy hidden behind his charming smile. Until it was too late, he showed his real self, soon he started yelling at me for the littliest thing, verbal words became physically until I couldn't find the help I needed. "

I paused, remembering it all in, as if it was replaying in my mind.

"I thought that he was just stressed about school and life. I let it all pass me. Then one night he came to my house, evryone was out so I was all alone, he was drunk and out of it. That night my nightmare came true, I remeber fighting for my life while he chased after me, hurt me and then raped me"

I felt a warm finger softly glinds across my cheeks, I closed my eyes and enjoyed the feeling of his finger wiping the tears away. I wished he could wipe the memories away. With that I continue my story, the most painful part of my past.

"Then a couple of weeks later I noticed the changes."

Stopping to exhale a breath I didnt know I was holding.

" that's when I found out that I was pregnant."

****************†*******************so there you go, part of our main character's life. Part 2 will be up but idk when ik its going to be up soon. But yeah what y'all think Damien will do after this ? , after he also finds out the next part?.

Anyways do hope y'all stay tune for more.

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