Hiding My Pain (Completed)

°Chapter Fourty One°√Three Words

"The truth is, unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself, unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize that the situation is over, you cannot move forward."- Steve Maraboli
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Dawn~

Here I was ready for the freedom, the freedom that's just right outside that door.

But my life hated me so much that it decided to put a block on my freedom, a block that I've been trying to move away from, to get away from and yet the farther, the harder I try the tougher that block becomes. I was tired, tired of trying, tired of having to find something to live for. I ask myself from the moment I woke up in that hospital after the accident why me?, why did I survive? only to go through so much more.

I had given up fighting because I thought I didn't have anything to live for, to fight for, no one to keep safe.

The point of moving from the past was to have a fresh start, a new begining and now that I had friends, people to care about I was willing. This was the begining of that fresh start that I had planned in the very begining, the past should've stayed in the past and in order for me to achieve that goal I needed to stop pretending and being so ignorant to my problems. I needed to face my biggest fear, my biggest tormentor, the nightmares that wake up in the middle of the night drenched in sweats and heart running wild.

That nightmare needed to be tamed, needed to be let go and I'll do just that.

I stared at the person, hell he shouldn't be conisdered a person, a person was someone who had a soul and heart. But liam had neither, he was a monster, a ruthless monster who loved to put his hands violently against another. A monster that found delight in pain and inflicting misery to everyone.

He had his sickening smile upon his face, the smile that made my heart flutter once upon a time, a smile that had made an idea, an image that one day I would wake to that smile. A smile that I used to love because it was a smile towards me with love and affection. That was before he turned into a monster. The looks of love and adortion was now replaced by hatred and disgust.

It's funny how fast one thinks and looks at someone that they've known for awhile, created memories and shared laughter with, how easy it is for us to change our minds in a second because of certein events.

The man in front of me wasn't the same one I loved and cherish, he's become a monster and I will do whatever to keep the people I've became to love and care safe even if it means my own life lost. He stares at me up and down, Damien quikly shields me as if he's protecting me from his eyes. Liam only chuckles.

"so Dawn I see you've moved on"

making a tsk sound he reach for something behind him revealing a gun, my heart leapt out of my chest, I could feel Damien tensing against me.

"do you know how long I've waited for the opportunity to get out of that hell hole so I could visit my love?'

he plays with the gun, taunting us. Taunting our lives as if we were toys.

"Let me see , you tried to move on, forget ,escape "

He stops and stares into my eyes, I stared along.

"But you see liz-"

I held a choke in at the familiar name he used to call me. Liz, short for Elizabeth , the last time I heard my middle name was when he had asked me out, when he was was the man I fell in love with in the very beginning.

"You were meant to stay with me, your uncle was supposed to keep his promise, to keep you with me but I guess he got cold feet."

Telling me these words sent a truck load of memories surging into my mind.

I remember that day so clearly, the day I almost had my freedom.

-Flashback -

My back and stomach were in pain, hell my whole body was in pain but I fought through, I fought through his beating and hurtful words, I was determined to get my freedom all I needed was for him to sleep. Once he was asleep I put on a different set of clothes thats warm enough for the cold weather. I quickly sneak out of my room with a bag on me, my heart thumping against my rib cage. I was so close. The moment I reached outside I wasn't expecting someone else to be there , with a shocked face I ran up to Uncle James and threw my arms around, happy that he was here to save me. But I was wrong, instead of putting his arms around me like I had he onl6 peeled me off of him and turned me around to face Liam who stood there with a smirk on his face . That night I learned that he was on his side not only that I watched him walk away while I was almost beat to death and my baby inside me."

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I could've had my freedom, could've saved my baby.

"enough chit chatting and let's finish what we came for shall we "

he pointed the gun towards us as my heart basically jumps out of my chest. Damien turns around and looked into my eyes , the eyes that held fear just like his. For the first time I wasn't afraid of dying, I've had enough experience of that , that I've basically got over it.

But I was afraid of losing Damien. I was afraid of the thought of not being able to hold him, kiss him. The one person who saw through me, who knew my fake smiles and saw the clouds that surrounded me. He chased those demons away. We looked into each others eyes and knew already what there was to say.

I connected my lips with his , so much affection, so much love in that one kiss. Only whispering the words I promised I wouldn't ever say.

"I love you"

Without him noticing I reached behind me and grabbed for the gun, as fast as I could I switched our position and fired , Liam as well.

All there was to hear was the guns echo and the look of surprise from Liam.

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Guys its literally -20 degrees and our school refused go cancel school wtf😑

But anyways aside from our school the book is almost done, so stay tune for more.

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