Hiding My Pain (Completed)

°Chapter Twenty Eight ° Heart in the gutter

"Before you see with your eyes you must first see with your heart."
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Dawn~

Is it possible for things to change drastically in a matter of seconds, if not seconds, days?.

Yes.

Yes it is.

Take my life for example. Five years ago everything changed. I lost my parents and sibling in an accident causing my family and I to lose people. Now here I breath and see with just one of my living surviving family. Jason, after the accident I thought maybe we'd heal from the wounds , I thought that the accident was all there was. Only I was wrong.

After the accident things went into a roller coaster.

And that roller coaster changed everything there is. It's not so much of what it's of who. He was the reason I lost trust in a lot of people, the reason I lost her. But that's another story saved for later. 

They say that life gives you pain but in the end you'll be given something worth the pain. Worth the suffer you've endured, that all those pain will be worth because by the end of the pain you'll find something worth it all. To me It's an utter bullshit. All my life since the moment the accident happened I've received nothing but pain, nothing but scars, physically and mentally. It made me hollow, confined me in a state where I almost lost my only family left. Everyone told me I was not one to be blamed but the truth was if I listened to Emma about him I would've saved myself from more pain instead I was a love sick puppy and he inflicted pain. Still do I carry those scars on my shoulders and backs. Still I carry those pain in my heart. And nothing can take those pain away.

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I had waken up at six this morning, not by the sound of Damien's music, in fact I haven't actually seen him all morning, I didn't even see him get in his red Ferrari. He was also absent from all his classes, I figured he'd being his usual self, just being the bad boy but when I had seen his group of boys which was literally with him wherever he went and they all seem to be out of place but lunch came rolling in, I opened my locker to place my belongs in, Bella and kymae next to me, but not Amelia.

"so why isn't Amelia here today?"

I ask her as I keep putting my belongs in. After I placed it in I then  turn to Kymae. Who had a longing face. I envied their relationship , they were so perfect for each other completely opposite where Kymae had a bad girl vibe but wouldn't mind a little good girl although as for Amelia who was completely a good girl. Yet they perfectly fit well with each other I envied that. The only relationship I've ever had I thought would last forever but turned out it nearly killed me. Literally.

"Her dad just came home"

I felt really bad for her Amelia, I had learned that she had lost her mother because of a cancer at the age of ten and her dad was in the army, leaving her mourning by herself while her dad escape it by leaving with her aunt, her mothers sister. Who loved her like a mother, I've actually met her before, she overwhelmed me a bit with how much and how easily she could tell the story behind someone's eyes. 

"That's good are you going to visit her?"

"No I think I'll let her with her father, her dad doesn't exactly know that she's  gay and she says she's moved on from his abandonment but I know it still effect her,  I offered to be there but she insisted on doing it herself "

"Does her aunt know and you know her she keeps everything in ?"

Just like me but I have a reason that I keep to myself.

Kymae sighs as we continue to walk to the cafeteria.

"Yeah her aunt is gay as well but she embraces it which is probably the reason why they both get along. "

We finally made it to the cafeteria. The rowdy animal like teenager's. After getting our lunch we sat down to our usual table in which the boys joined in as well. Jacob sat down next to me but my attention was somewhere else, I  turn to Scott who had cheese on his forehead while Jacob had what looks like beans on his as well. Shaking my head I decided to turn my attention to danny who was just on his phone. Typing furiously. He's been on his phone lately , as for Andy who now had his focused on Bella.

"Where's Damien ?"

He didn't respond, again I try and again he didn't reply. I got irritated and decided to throw a piece of bread at him. He didn't reply. Now I know he's ignoring me. This time I took a spoon full of bean and chuck it at him landing right at his forhead, startled he dropped his phone and had on a shock face. Everyone laughed including me.

"Wha-"

His eyes was dead set on me, I gave him a sheepish smile. Glaring he got up from his seat and stalk towards me, I got up as well and then made a run for it.

I could hear him behind me shouting my name while I laugh, people's head turn towards me. I made it out of the cafeteria and looked around for any empty room finding one. I ran towards it but barely made it when I felt a hand wrap around me. I was abruptly turned around not realizing how close we both were, due to the fact how much I was laughing, he's eyes landed on me in which I just now realized that he kept glancing down at my lips. He's face leaned in and my heart stopped. Before he could go further I got out of his arms.

"Uh daw-"

I cut him off, I didn't know how to handle this situation.

"I'm sorry"

With that I walked away. With a question in mind.

What the hell was that?

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Uh oh Danny boy has a little feeling.

What's going to happen ? We all know dawn has. Feelings for Damien but what about Jacob?

Love square😂

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