Hiding My Pain (Completed)

Chapter Fifteen✓April 16

"happiness is found in the most unexpected places"
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Dawn-

Ever have that certain day that you plan on ignoring for the rest of your life?.

A day that had place a mark within your heart and soul that everytime you think and realized it's that day all you ever want to do is just crawl in a hole and die slowly.

This particular day, today. April 16. A day I could never forget nor will I ever move on too.

I woke up feeling as if the life force has been sucked out of me, as if I was just a walking, talking shell. Standing up I sigh deeply and head to shower, already feeling as if my body had stopped working. After shower I went to kitchen and find Jason and Kate. We were quite for we all knew what today was. A day that had placed a hole in our hearts. We ate breakfast silently, not word nor a glance at one another that is until Kat broke that silence.

"You know you don't have to go to school today "

She says, barely a whisper but we heard her. Jason stiffens and let out a breath.

"I agree with Kat, if you want you can stay home"

I looked up at them, their eyes filled with petty and worries. I forced a weak smile to form upon my face.

"No it's fine "

They nodded. Kat gave a squeeze to my hand as if assuring that I'd make it through the day. Make it through life knowing that I bear so much, knowing that today is something so unforgettable.

After breakfast. Jason and I headed to school. I had given Jason a lift due to the fact that his car needed a fixation. We sat in my car, silence upon us. I wasn't ready to talk about this particular day, nor do I want to speak words. But Jason had other ideas.

Jason looked at me.

"Dawn"

He whispers and I looked at him, determined to keep the tears at bay so he wouldn't see that my heart felt like somebody was crushing it.

"I'll be fine Jason and if I break I'll make sure to call you"

I gave him that weak and broken smile. I knew he wouldn't fall for it but nodded anyways, not wanting to push it more.

When we entered the school Bella instantly hooked her arms with mine. Right away she started babbling about her weekend. I smiled at her hoping she wouldn't see through. Thank god she was busy talking about her weekend to noticed.

I made it through first hour without so much as shedding a tear. But second hour came in and that's when my heart dropped. I sat in my usual seat as the health teacher came in. Minute later Damien and Andy came in. The moment Damien's eyes landed on mine he smirked but that smirked instantly fell off the moment I gave him my usual fake smile. He sat down next to me.

"hey are you okay?"

He whispers so no one would hear but he and I.

"yeah I'm great."

But I knew he didn't buy it. One thing I learned from this past couple of weeks with Damien is the he was observant, knew when people were lying, knew when something wasn't right. He had the keen eyes. And that alone scared me.

Half way to class when Mr Fitz began talking about reproduction, in which I clearly did not understand why would he be teaching it now when we had already learned about it in middle school. I broke. I picked up my belongings and walked my way to his desk, knowing full well that every eyes were on me, especially Damien's.

"May I go to the nurse I'm not feeling well".

I knew he would buy it. I've learned my ways to excuse out of class. He nodded and I left hurriedly. I ran to my locker and punched in my combination, taking my keys out as tears began to fall, I leaned against my locket as huccups escape from me, wiping the river of tears I immediately went to my car. I sat in my car as more tears began to fall, my head resting on the wheel, couple of minuets later I inserted the keys, heading towards that one place. A place that I could never forget and haven't visited for the last couple of months.

That specific place was only one hour away. I parked my car and take in an enormous amount of breaths. Those tears now only faint on my cheeks, with so much of a shaky hands I opened the door and walked to the pain.

Kneeling down on the cold wet ground due to the recent rain. I read of the tombstones. One by one.

Cassidy Rose Amber Mickelson, a mother, a wife, a friend.

Dave Louis Mickelson, a father, a brother, a loving husband.

Emma Rose Mickelson, a daughter and a sister.

Then lastly.

Amarisa Rose Louis Mickelson, a daughter and a nephew.

"My baby girl "

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Damien-

I had waken late this morning and knew that I wouldn't hear the end of my parents lecture about tardiness.

When I arrived at school after first hour had already finished I quickly went to my locker, not caring I would actually be late for my second hour class. I closed my locker and almost jumped due to the fact that Jamie was here. Her clothes that seemed to be nothing but rather a bra and underwear . I honestly wasn't feeling it with her today but then I figured a free fuck shouldn't be wasted.

After Jamie and I played I went to second hour with Scott beside me,we entered the class and Mr Fitz scowled but I only rolled my eyes. I scanned the room finding Dawn. I gave her a smirked but that quickly disappeared when I looked into her eyes.

Pure sadness.

Walking towards her and sitting beside I whispered so that no one would hear.

"are you okay?"

She replied but I knew that smile was fake. Half way through class Dawn immediately left the classroom. I followed her making excuses.

I followed Dawn from her locker, my heart was throbbing for some reason seeing her head against the locker and hearing small hiccups, why is she crying so hard, then after a while she took her keys out and went to her car, seeing tears run down as she sit alone in her car. I wanted to go to her and calm her. Comfort her, ask her why she was crying but held I my ground.

She had driven for an hour and stopping in the parking lot of a cemetery. I followed her without letting her know.

She kneel to the ground and I saw her cry even more in front of four tombstones. My curiosity was growing as I hear her whisper.

"My baby girl"

I was about to leave my hiding spot when I spotted Jason running towards her. He held her in his arms as she cried harder. Hearing bits of their conversations.

"she..s gone, they..rrr..e..alll gone...ee"

I see Jason rubbing her back and her head as tears of his own fell. I went a little closer to hear better. I knew I shouldn't intervene but I couldn't help it. Inside me there was nagging feeling lingering in my heart, an ach for Dawn.

But why would I feel for her?. There was more to her background, that I knew but what exactly ?. What and who could these people be that just made her whole being so broken.

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Dun dun, what is Dawn's secret and why is Damien actor this way?????

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