Imagines H.G.

Cold As Death

*warning so fucking sad*

Hayes pov

Today's the day. The last day I get to spend with her. After today and for forever she will be nothing but a memory. Y/n has stage four liver cancer. As random as that is it runs in her family. Her dad died from it. Her grandma died from it. Now, it's her turn.

I climb the stairs, my legs feeling numb, to our room where she lays. I open the door quietly, just in case she's sleeping, and tip toe over to the bed.

She pulls the blanket away from her eyes and looks up at me, her bandana starting to slide off showing her little patches of hair she has left.

"Hey bug",she says.

"Hi",I say.

We sit in silence for a while, while I run my thumb down her cheek. I see her blanky look at the wall behind me.

"Baby you know what's going to happen, right?",I whisper.

"Yeah",she sighs.

"Are you scared?",I ask laying next to her.

"No, just sad",she says gently.

"Why?",I ask.

"Because I'm still only 15. I won't be able to experience things. I won't be able to experience marriage. Or holding a baby inside of me. Or going to prom. Or a break up. Or even... no nevermind",she says and shakes her head.

"No, what were your going to say?",I ask and hold her cheek.

"No, it's dumb",she says.

"Tell me",I whisper, looking at her lips.

"I'll never know what it feels like to be loved",she says.

"What are you taking about? I love you. Nash loves you. Your mom loves you", I say.

"Not that kind of love. Like...",she fades out.

She squirms and looks away from me.

"Like...sex?",I ask.

"No, it's dumb",she says.

"No I understand",I say.

We both stay quite for a while taking it all in.

"Can you show me?",she asks gently.

"I don't want to take that away from you",I say putting a piece of hair behind her ear.

"No, you won't be. I want my first and last time to be with you",she says looking up at me.

"Are you sure?",I ask.

"Yes",she says taking my hand.

"I don't want to hurt you",I say.

"You won't",she reasures.

I lean over and connect our lips. My warm ones enveloping her cold ones. Tingles erupt in my stomach when I kiss her.

I lean over her, holding myself up with my elbows, and deepen the kiss. She opens her legs for me to fit in between, and wraps her arms around my neck.

I slide my hands up and down her sides and kiss her jaw. She releases my neck and lifts the hem of my shirt. I slide it off slowly. I move from her jaw to her neck, giving her little love bites. She moans slightly as I nibble on her ear lobe.

I move my hands slowly down to the bottom of her shirt and slide it gently over her head. She unbuckles my pants as she connects our lips again. I slide her and my pants off so were left in our underwear.

I kiss her collar bone and she arches her back, giving me enough time to unclasp her bra. She shimmys it off her shoulders as I sit up and take in her beauty.

I smile and reconnect our lips. After a few more minutes and hickeys, we both pull away breathless.

"Are you ready?",I ask her, pulling down my boxers and her underwear.

"Um...yeah",she says.

"Are you sure?",I whisper, touching our lips.

"Yes",she breathes out as I put my tip at her entrance.

I kiss her lips once more before continuing. She squeezes her eyes shut and her breathe quickens.

I pause once I'm all the way in and wait for her. She moves her legs around a little bit and nods.

I pull out about halfway and push myself back in. I quicken my pace once I can tell she's comfortable.

I focus on giving her as much pleasure as I can. She starts panting and her legs tighten around my hips, when she's about to release.

I kiss her one last time and release inside of her, causing her to.

I lay next to her as we catch our breath.

"That was amazing Hayes. Thank you",she says gently.

"You are welcome. I love you so much",I say, a tear falling down my face.

"I love you so much more",she says and kisses me, softly.

I slide her underwear and bra back on her as well as mine, and cover us both with the blanket.

"Goodnight love",I whisper.

"Goodnight",she says through a yawn. Shortly after I here little snores coming from next to me.

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The next morning I wake up freezing with the blanket on the other side of the bed. I reach over and feel for y/n, trying to share body heat. I grab her hand expecting it to be warm. It it's not. It's cold.

Cold as death...

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I have a new book out for those who don't know. And I'm sorry to do this to all of you.

-Mac