Male YouTuber Imagines

"Jack...I'm not her." (JACK): ©Skiller0Dani

I'm also in love with Sean McLoughlin (aka Jack, Jackaboy, JackSepticEye) 

I'm doing two (or three) based on this song, I'll also be writing a Mark one. (and maybe a Dan one I haven't decided) 

Song: Give Your Heart A Break by Demi Lovato 

~DaNi

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You desperately wanted to figure it out. Everytime you looked into his eyes, you could see it. The wall, the armor that seemed to protect him. You wanted to know why. Why was he so guarded? What was he trying to hide? You sat across from him, as he looked forward at the TV screen. You chewed on your bottom lip, as you studied his side profile, he was laughing at something in the game. He had his headphones on, as he was recording but you were safely hidden off camera. He glanced at you once, his eyebrows furrowing at your expression. Seeing as the viewers didn't know you and Jack were, well whatever you guys are he didn't say anything. You could tell just from your expression, that anxiety was shooting through him. He tried to laugh and act normally, but you could tell it was just an act, he was too busy worrying about what was going on with you. He finished that recording session, so you stood moving out of the room. You knew the camera was on but it didn't matter as Jack would just edit it out. You swung the door shut after you, not expecting him to stand and follow you out into his living room. 

"What's the matter?" He asks, trying to keep his anxiety at a minimum. You didn't answer as you reached for your shoes. If you were listening more carefully, you would have heard him suck in a sharp breath, his heart beginning to race. 

"Y-You're leaving?" He asks moving away from you, backing towards the hallway in which you two had just emerged from. 

"Yeah, I'll be back later." You say calmly, trying not to let on what you were really thinking of. You turn and face him, both of you crossing your arms desperately trying to hide something from the other. You took a step towards him to say goodbye but he stuttered backwards, not wanting you to touch him. 

"See you later then." He says, turning down the hallway and disappearing into his recording room. You let out a huff of air as you move to the door. Every single damn time you two get close he pulls away and forces you to start at square one all over again. You groan as you almost let the door close before you turn back into his flat, letting the door shut. You look down the hallway, seeing the recording room door open. You move to his bedroom, you felt like you guys were more than just friends, but Jack would disagree. You knock on the door, hearing shifting from the other side. The door opens and before he had a chance to say anything you pressed your lips against his. He stills for a moment but you pull away as soon as you do it. You just look at him as his lips part. He stays still, as you guys hold an intense stare. 

"I'm just not that kind of guy." Jack explains, swirling his coffee in his cup. You nod once, already feeling your heart clench just being around him.

 "Really? You seem like a big ole softie." You tease, smiling at him. He rolls his eyes chuckling. 

"Yeah well guess again. I don't just fall in love. At least not so quickly." Jack says to you, leaning back in his chair. He was lying of course, he has a big heart. He falls in love easily, but he just doesn't want to. Not after what happened last time, he never wants to go through that again. 

You remember those words, as you stand here face to face. He was confident then, hidden. He was that mystery 'bad boy' that you wanted to break down. The kind of guy girls seemed to chase and never pin down, you wanted to be the girl who pinned him down. But the more of his layers you stripped down the more you began to know him. There was only one more wall left in between you two, but it wasn't a wall that could be so easily broken. You learned about him, you learned that he's more sensitive than he originally let on. You learned that he had been damaged beyond repair and because of that you felt like he could never truly love you. You learned that he wasn't confident or a bad boy, just simply another sad person trying so desperately to avoid being broken again. You weren't sure how much longer you could sit by and be hurt over and over by him. You were well aware that he didn't mean to, but you love him, you fucking fell in love with him. You didn't want to do anymore waiting, you wanted to be with him. He lets out a shaky breath as you take a step towards him. 

"Jack...I'm not her." You say in a whisper, your hands hooking behind his neck. You move your lips to his shoulder, as you press open mouthed kisses along the curve of his neck. (I definitely wrote smut from here but I still don't post my smut online, if you really really want it, comment and vote!) You looked back up at him, as he moves forward and presses his lips to yours again. 

"Do you trust me?" You ask him softly as he looks over you, unsure of if he's ready to take that step. 

"Trust me...I love you Jack." You confess, pressing your burning face in the curve of his pale neck. 

"I love you." He says softly, in a raspy voice. You pull back, looking at him smiling. You chuckle, lacing your fingers with his. 

"The day I first met you, you told me you never fall in love." You inquire, smirking. He rolls his eyes playfully. 

"Well I didn't fall in love before." He explains, causing you to furrow your eyebrows. 

"What changed?" You ask him, leaning into him. 

"I met you." He tells you, moving out of his room smiling as you burst out laughing. 

"Oh my god Sean. That was so cheesy!"