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Since You Been Gone (DAN): ©Skiller0Dani

Since you been gone..

I can't breathe for the first time..

I'm still holding on..

It was nearly impossible to not cry as he blinked back at me. An expression was on his face, like he was trying to tell me he had no choice but to do this. His hands were clasped together in his lap as he continued to look ahead at me, in pity. I couldn't speak. My heart beats in my chest, why would he do this?

How come I'd never hear you say..

"I just wanna be with you"..

I guess you never felt that way..

The tears roll over. He stands, placing a hand on my shoulder. He gives it a squeeze and he leans down to plant a kiss on my forehead. I close my eyes as I hear my apartment door swing close. I physically shudder as the sound is the sound of my heart breaking. I turn to look toward where he just exited. I look, as if expecting him to be standing in the doorway, running to me and telling me he didn't mean it.

And all you'd ever hear me say..

Is how I picture me with you..

That's all you'd ever hear me say..

It burns. And I sit here, I think about all the types of pain and decide that this is the worst kind of pain. There's physical pain, and that sucks. But then there is this mental, emotional sort of pain. It takes over your entire body. Suddenly, you can't breathe, and you just ache. Its like your being aches, your soul aches. Memories of whoever you're missing make it 10x worse.

You dedicated..

You took the time..

It wasn't long until I called you mine..

I remember every detail about him. Not the brown eyes or the brown hair. I mean I remember his favorite Pokemon. I remember his favorite video game character. I remember what brand of sharpie he used for his cat whiskers. I remember what he was wearing when we first met. I remember how to make him laugh. I remember what things made those stupid brown eyes light up like fireworks. I remember what his favorite constellation was. I remember his favorite kind of cereal. I remember what he asked for for his birthday this year. I remember the first time he ever said I love you. I remember the first time he ever kissed me. I remember everything, and it makes it worse. I wish I could just forget. Forget it all, forget every moment of the 2 years we spent together. He ended it and left, as if it all meant nothing. I nervously click on his new video. His face appears on the screen, and he begins to speak. His eyes are red, and puffy, and his throat is raw and scratchy. Like he's been crying?

Out of sight out of mind.

"Hey internet... So I got some earth shattering news..Me and Sophie broke up. I'm just gunna...I dunno. Talk. About what, I'm not so sure yet, but I just need to ramble to keep my mind off of it. Uhm. So guys Phil did a thing, he bought another houseplant. Without asking me, I think he needs an intervention or something. I mean its getting out of hand. And uhm. I'm wearing my favorite jumper. The one that- that..Sophie bought for me.. OKAY. I found my old legend of Zelda game. I might replay it. Because the first time I played it, it was two player with Sophie. Oh..uhm. Oh what the hell. I'm going to talk about Sophie, I can't get my mind off of her anyway. Guys did you know I still remember the best day of my life? It was on July 15, 2013. The day I fell in love with Sophie, properly. She was in her underwear. I mean we were best friends, and she was changing, and I noticed a little star tattoo. I mean the tiniest little tattoo, it was only the outline of a star, a black outline. It was on her left back dimple, and it was the cutest little thing. I asked her about it, and she told me that it didn't have any meaning. She just had felt spontaneous and got a tiny tattoo. And I decided right then and there that I loved her, properly loved her. That same day we began dating. It slipped out see, as soon as I thought it I said it, and she said it back. And that was that. And Sophie is the purest thing you'll ever see or meet. She is outstandingly kind. And she is perfect. I mean a real perfect. Her laugh makes me want to be with her forever. And the way her nose crinkles up when she sneezes. And, and when she licks the tip of my nose instead of being a normal person and just kissing me. She was really short as well. I mean she had to stand on her tippy toes to even have a chance at reaching my lips. But I still had to crouch down for her. I always had to get her favorite mug from the top shelf of her apartment. I would rest my arm on her head and everytime I did, her mood went from content to murder in .5 seconds. It was always cute when she got mad. Cause I mean her cheeks got all puffed out and she would ball up her fists. I mean she was so tiny, so she always looked like a pouting toddler. It was cute. She always did things for me as well. She would bring my computer when I was too lazy, and she would bring me my favorite bowl of cereal. If I was sick she would tuck me into my bed and bring me medicine. She would prop up my computer in front of us on the bed and play one of my favorite shows, while she layed on my chest. She was perfect, and now she's gone, because of me. I ended it guys. I can't ever explain why, not to you..not to her. Sophie, you are watching this, I know you are, you're a horrible liar. I love you, but forget me, for your own sake, forget me.

Please just forget me."