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Can't Be (MARK): ©Skiller0Dani

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Song: I'm Not The Only One by Sam Smith 

~DaNi

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It started off small, really small. A subtle glance, a lingering touch. It never meant to get like this, he never meant for it to be like this. But somehow the looks and touched ended up in the bathroom of some bar doing sinful duties, as Mark's loyal girlfriend waited at home unaware. Or he thought she was unaware. So here he sat, doing the buckle of his belt as the other girl ruffled her hair. She was trying to look presentable. She buttoned her jeans and left the bathroom, leaving Mark alone with his guilt. He felt it every time, guilty. Yet he continued to do it, for reasons even he didn't know. He ran a hand through his hair before he stood, and made his way to the car. 

The house was lit, she waited for him. A sigh left his lips as he pulled the collar of his shirt up to cover the dark love bites. He knew it was only a matter of time, he just wasn't quite ready for the storm yet. So Mark sat in his car, watching her do the dishes from the kitchen window. He wasn't happy with the other girl, he didn't love her. He just couldn't say no? Or he got caught up in the moment? Or perhaps he's just a scumbag. Yeah that last option seems more likely. He loved her, the woman in the window. Y/N. So very much, and it was still unclear as to why he was still hurting her. Mark thought about letting her go many times in the past, he thought about being a jerk and smashing her heart just to make it easier. He knew it would be easier to get over him if he was as mean as he could, rather than let on he'd been unfaithful. Mark thought about doing that a lot, he thought about doing it tonight. He could say something along the lines of that he didn't want her, or didn't love her. Even though none of it would be true, it would be enough to get her to leave. So he wouldn't do this to her anymore, waste her love on someone who will throw it away. Mark didn't mean to throw her love away, but he couldn't stop himself. He eventually moved from the car, and towards the front door. Mark unlocks the front door, and gently closes it behind him. 

"It's late." He hears her sweet voice say from the kitchen. 

"Y-Yeah the meeting went longer than I thought." Mark lied, knowing he wasn't at a meeting. She smiles when she turns and sees him, moving closer to him. Mark opens his arms as she draws closer. Y/N inserts herself in his chest, sighing when she feels his arms move around her. He hold her tightly, as he buries his face in her neck. Y/N's fingers play with hairs at the back of his neck, as she sees the love bites. She's known for a while but god she loves him so much. 

"I love you." She whispers into the shell of his ear as his hands grip the back of her shirt. He isn't worthy of her love, he can't do this to her anymore. He pushes her away and runs a hand through his hair. 

"I have to tell you something, something I've been meaning to say for a while." Mark snaps, trying to appear as angry as he can. 

"What's wrong baby? Talk to me." She encourages softly. His heart breaks at her gentleness, but he resumes his previous behavior. 

"I've been feeling this a lot lately, and I just don't think I can be with you anymore." Mark says rudely, as he turns away from her. At first Y/N feels panicked, and hurt but then she remembers the love bite. He's trying to push her away, he doesn't mean it. She reaches out to grab his arm but he jolts away from her. 

"Mark-" She starts. 

"No you don't understand Y/N, I don't want you!" He yells, turning towards her. 

"Please Mark, just listen to me-" She tries to say but is cut off. 

"No you just get in your head that I am done! I don't love you anymore, I haven't for a long time. I never really loved you, you were just someone for me to fuck around with!" He snaps, hating each word that he is saying. 

"Mark I know about the girl!" Y/N shouts, causing Mark to freeze. He turns to face her, horrified. 

"W-What?" He stutters, slowly moving away from her. 

"I know about what you've been doing. I know that you didn't go to a meeting but you saw another girl instead. Mark I've been meaning to talk to you about it. I'm hurt, believe me there were weeks I cried and cursed your name. But I love you and I'm willing to try and fix us. I want to try Mark, please." She pleads, moving towards him. He feels paralyzed as she stands in front of him. 

"Mark I love you, I don't want to lose you." She cries, and he almost can't believe it. He's the one hurting her and she's afraid of losing him? He lets out a shaky breath as he carefully reaches to pull her into his chest. 

"I-I love you Y/N." He speaks carefully as she buries herself in his chest. 

"But I don't we can be fixed." He says at last.