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Chapter 32

I tuned them out as they all argued, yelling at each other. Eventually, Calum and Ashton left, leaving me with none other than Luke Hemmings. Great.

I kept my gaze on the floor, not willing to let my eyes meet his. I could feel his eyes boring into me, but I didn't wanna face the conversation that was surely coming.

"Evie, please talk to me," he said, pleading with me.

I sighed, running my fingertips over the wood of the dining table, not finding my voice.

The room was silent, all you could hear was Luke's heavy breathing, and I swear I could hear his heart beating from here, though I'm probably imagining things.

"It's kind of a díck move for you to ignore me like this..." Luke said, his voice heavy.

I knew he was right, of course he was right. I was being an absolute jerk to him, even though he's done nothing wrong. I owe it to him to hear him out, and stop giving him the cold shoulder just because I'm too weak to face him.

I tore my gaze from the table and met his, his ocean blue eyes captivating me instantly. Even though I was nervous, I somehow found comfort in those familiar blue eyes. I'd looked to them so many times when I needed help, and they were always there.

"How long?" I finally mustered to say, my voice soft.

He looked thoughtful for a moment, furrowing his rather unkempt brows.

"As long as I can remember, really," he said, his cheeks turning a soft tinge of pink.

How had I not known this? Was I that oblivious? Or was he just really good at hiding it? We had been friends for so long, I always looked at him like a brotherly figure, the thought that he could have feelings for me never occurred to me once.

"Oh, wow," was all I could think to say.

He chuckled lowly, looking at his feet as he nervously tapped his foot against the hardwood flooring.

"I ruined everything by telling you, didn't I?" He said, a sad hint to his voice.

"No no no, you didn't it's okay," I said, standing up from my chair and walking over to him.

He eyed me cautiously, looking me up and down.

"I think I already know the answer to this but, I just have to ask it," he said, his voice sounding pained.

My heart began to beat faster, knowing what he was probably going to ask me.

"Do you have feelings for me?" He choked out, his eyes seeping into mine.

I took a step back, my mouth opening and closing as I thought about his question.

Did I have feelings for him?

I thought about it, thinking to see if there had ever been a time where he's made my heart race. That's when Michael began to flood my thoughts.

I could never love Luke.

I stared into his hopeful eyes, wishing I didn't have to say this. I didn't want to hurt him, even though I'm not in love with him, I still love this boy very much. Just not in the way he loves me.