A LOVE THAT STARTED IN MY BOSS' OFFICE

CHAPTER 28

Fere's POV

It's been a long time since huli akong tumapak sa Hernandez Building. I can't help but reminisce the days I am an ordinary employee here. I missed being ordinary and contented. Today, I made myself beautiful.

"Hi Hendrix!" bati ko sa kanya as I pass on the 26th floor where Yuseff have his office

He weakly smiled at me. Siguro nga alam na nya ang nangyayari. I saw a girl on the secretary's desk. A young version of Kristina. She's beautiful and sexy. I smiled at her but she didn't gave back the smile instead she rolled her eyes on me

"Oh here she is." said the girl who look like Kristina after she pushed the door

I saw my husband and Kristina seating next to each other.

"Mr. Hernandez, I promise, within this week, the birth certificate of your son will be fixed. Anyway, let's proceed to our next case."

Yuseff nodded. He take a deep breath. Hindi ako claustrophobic pero nasisikipan ako sa opisina ni Yuseff. Nahihirapan din akong huminga.

Ngayon ko na lang ulit nakita ang asawa ko sa malapit. He look dazzling as ever. Sya pa rin ang pinakagwapong nilalang na nakita ko. I wanted to hug and kiss him pero alam kong hindi pwede, hindi na.

"Attorney Medalla, this is Ferella, my soon to be ex-wife and Ferella, this is Atty. Medalla, the lawyer who'll help us in our annulment."

Shocked and hurt. Wala na akong ginawa. Nagayos ako. Maganda ako ngayon. Yan na lang ang sinasabi ko sa isip ko eliminating all the triggers of tears. I am silently cheering myself not to cry hard. I weakly smile at them and bravely greet them

"Good Morning po." I don't know where am I getting all the strength right now, pero the thing I really wanted to do is cry hard. Cry my heart out to let me feel even a little comfort.

This is it then. My hubby is asking his wife to go away. Fere, please keep smiling. Please don't lose the smile. Yan na lang ang meron ka ngayon Fere, smile please. This is your wish right? Nagdasal ka na palayuin ka na ng asawa mo. Heto na yun. Smile, wish granted na.

"Let's seat?" "I will be discussing what you'll be getting from this. If you sign...."

Hindi na siguro kailangan patagalin pa ito. Isa lang naman ang gusto kong marinig eh.

"Eto ba ng gusto mo Yuseff?" tumingin ako sa kanya. Ito lang naman gusto kong malaman eh kung ito ba ang makakapagpasaya sa kanya.

Hindi sya sumagot, pero sapat na ang hawakan nya ang kamay ng babaeng mahal nya. Why am I seeing how lovely they were kahit na ngayon, durog na ang puso ko? I'm seeing how they love each other and there's nothing I can do anymore. They wanted to build their family so I will let them crush mine. They want to be whole so I would let them make mine broken.

Humarap ako kay Atty habang pinilit ang sarili kong ngumiti ulit. Ngiti lang Fere, ngiti lang.

"Ahhmmmn, Atty. Ah, ganto na lang po, amina na yang papers, I'll sign. Pwede po bang iwaive nyo na lahat ng pwede ko makuha, hindi naman po ako interesado jan."

Attorney hesitantly give me the papers so I immediately grab the paper and sign all of it. I make sure not to skip any part for me even without reading. Sobrang bigat na ng pakiramdam ko. I made sure to do this as fast as I can. Hanga ako sa tatag ko sa mga oras na ito. I felt the much need to colapse but I made it. I have signed everything.

So after I sign I bowed at them, smile and take the last glance of my husband. Then I immediately walk out away from them. From everybody. From all pain. Wala na akong oras na tingnan pa sila muli dahil anytime, I might lose the grip of my sanity. Baka mamaya lumuhod na lang ako sa harap nila at magmakaawa. Habang kaya ko pa, tumalikod na ako at nagpasyang, tumakbo na lang.

But someone grab my arm and pushed me hard against the wall.

"Ang kapal ng mukha mo?! Sobrang laki na ba ng nakuha mo kay Anthony na naipahiya mo si Yuseff at Kristina?!" Sabi nung babaeng nasa secretary's desk kanina.

"Ano bang problema pa? Umayaw na nga ako diba? Pumirma na ako. Walang hirap,walang pagod. Ano pa ba ang gusto mo????"

Tumalikod na ako sa kanya, siguro naman this time, entitled na akong isave ang natitira para sa akin. This time kailangan ko ng magtira ng para sa sarili ko.

"Aba mayabang ka ha!!!"

She dragged me at the fire exit and pushed me again. Pero this time, it was really really hard that I fell from the stairs making me lose something very very important. A thick red fluid is rushing down my legs. And all I can do is cry and pray that I can protect this precious one inside my womb. Yes, I am pregnant. The very reason I I want to keep Yuseff. The reason why I betrayed him. Eto na ba ang kabayaran ng lahat? Ganito na ba kasama ang ginawa ko? Ganito ba dapat ang maging kapalit ng lahat?

If I only knew, I should have run so fast, far away, very far away from this pain. Sobrang higpit ng hawak ko sa impit ko pang puson. My baby is only 10 weeks, and I am about to lose him. Sobra sobrang dami ng nawala sa buhay ko. Our business, our house, our life, my dad, my lola, my future, my should have been family, my husband, even my old self but this is way painful, I am losing my only hope. My baby.

Before the darkness enveloped my being, I put my hands on my tummy and whisper with all the strangth I have "Baby, wag mo namang iiwan si Mama please. Mahal kita anak."