A LOVE THAT STARTED IN MY BOSS' OFFICE

CHAPTER 52

Yuseff's POV

I am here again at my son's grave. Trying to talk to him. It's been two months pero hindi pa rin gumigising si Fere. Our baby's 5 months already in her tummy. Sabi nga ni Doc, we can already check kung anong gender. But I said not yet. Dapat sabay kami ni Fere na malaman ang gender ng baby namin.

I and Faye's okay now. Naiintindihan ko naman kasi kung bakit nagalit sya. Ako nga, galit din mismo sa sarili ko. Buti na lang she had her Ate's heart. Pinatawad nya ako at hinahayaan nya akong bumawi sa kasalanan ko sa kanila.

"Papa! Nikausap mo na po si Kuya Yuan?"

"Opo Kuya Yugi."

"Nisabi mo na po ba sa kanya na makakababy sister na po kami?"

"Baby sister ba yung nasa tummy ni Mama?"

"Opo! Kasi yun nipepray ko po lagi eh."

I thank God Yugi was able to be healed after several treatment. Hirap na hirap ai Yugi sa dinanas nyang trauma. Seeing her mother covered with blood and lifeless made him not able to talk for a month. Ipinasok ko sya sa psycholgical treatment just to make him better. Now I am taking the part of being his father.

"Halika nga dito nak. Wag ka masyadong malikot, baka masugatan ka."

"Sir, tumawag po si Ma'am Patchie, pinapuwi na po kayo." Our driver/body guard asked us

Dahil hindi pa nasosolve ang kaso ni Fere, Lola gave Yugi a body guard and driver. Base kasi sa investigation, it was intentional. The problem is the car that hit my wife don't have a plate number yet. Kaya mahirap pang hanapin kung sino ang gumawa nito.

"Sige, iuwi mo na muna si Yugi. Maiiwan na muna ako dito."

"Pero sir,--" I cut him

"Uuwi din ako agad. I just want to be here bago ako bumalik sa asawa ko."

And he willingly oblige. Mahigpit kong ibinilin sa kanya si Yugi. I cannot afford anymore casualty. Baka tuluyan na akong walang maiharap sa asawa ko.

Today's exactly 6 years after we lost our first child to be. And yes, it was all my fault. Kasalanan ko na nangyari ito, kasalanan ko lahat. My wife had been nothing but a good wife and I am nothing but the worse one could ever have. Yet, here my wife accepted me again.  Without me even saying sorry for everything I've done.

"Anak, nahihiya ako sa'yo kasi kasalanan ko kung bakit anjan ka. Anak, mahal ka ni Papa. Mahal na mahal kita. Ipagpapalit ko ang lahat anak, kung pwede ka lang mabuhay. Mahal na mahal kita. Sorry anak. Sorry kasi bad si Papa. Sorry anak kasi nahirapan kayo ng Mama mo. Sorry anak. Kung alam ko lang anak, kung alam lang nitong gagong Papa mo."

I cried hopelessly. Naaalala ko ang kinwento ni Faye sa akin. All the hardship my wife had been through because I was stupid.

The thought of my wife being hungry all day while she is pregnant with our child is the ghost that hunts me everywhere I go. Kaya pala laging nakasilip si Fere sa maliit na siwang ng pinto. She's waiting for a time I could give her. While I was being busy taking care of my anger with her, she stayed loving and understanding me. While I was trying to get rid of her, she's striving to live for my child inside her.

Alam kong wala nang magagawa ang mga iyak ko pero tangna! Nagsisisi ako. If I could just punch myself, I will. I want to torture myself. I want someone to beat me until I die. Mula nang sabihin sa akin ni Faye ang lahat, all I did was cry. Nakakabakla. Pero yun na lang ang kaya kong gawin.

I am here, in my child's grave. Crying in pain of my own actions. In agony of what I did. Being so sorry of not letting him live.

I cried. I wanted so bad to hold my child but it's my fault he's gone. I cried. I am so sorry I was so stupid. I cried and cried.

"Anak, makapal ang mukha ko, pero anak, please, wag mo munang kunin ang Mama mo anak. Hindi ko kaya anak. H'wag mo munang isama ang Mama at kapatid mo anak. H'wag muna anak please. Hindi ko kaya anak. Hindi. Please anak. Mahal na mahal na mahal ko ang Mama mo. Babawi pa ako anak. Mahal na mahal ko kayo. Parang awa mo na anak, pagsisilbihan ko pa ang Mama mo."

"Hindi nya pa ako isasama kasi gusto nya, mabuo tayo. Mahal ka rin ng anak mo Papa."

"Wife!!"

If this is a dream, please don't wake me up. I want to live with this dream forever. Please, somebody, stop the clock.

"Hub, ano ka ba naman, naiipit si Baby, magagalit ang mga Kuya nya sa'yo."

"Are you real?"

"Can a ghost be as hot as me? Hub, alam kong malaki ako ngayon pero aminin mo, hot and sexy pa rin ako! Hahaha."

Upon hearing her laugh, I hugged her.

Oh Lord, thank you! Anak, salamat. I will take care of this lady and our children. I will do anything to make them safe. I will love them as much as I can, more than anything.