Unwanteds High (AU)

Chapter 13

((Samheed's POV))

Stupid... Worthless..

That's what I was. Yeah, I was a jerk and the meanest person alive apparently.

I buried my face in my dark blue pillow on my bed by my computer. The tears just wouldn't stop.
God I was pathetic. I'm stupid, a bothersome, and trash too.

I glanced up at the screen again and read through all of the comments again in the group chat.
They were right. I was what they were saying I was.

I live two lives. My name is Samheed Burkesh.
I live in the online galaxy and reality.

Recently however, the online world was more evil than the harsh face of reality.

I mean, I guess you can say that I'm being cyber bullied. But I don't know them, and they don't know me.

No one knows though besides us. The harsh and cruel words that are spoken to me, but I return them back.

My honesty can be an evil mess too.

I was a cyberbully and being cyberbullied.
No one that I know in real life knows though. I keep it hidden in my room. That's what I always do.
Save the tears for the pillow when no one else is daring to look at you.

I glanced at the clock, looking at the red digital digits.
It was 7 p.m.
And I haven't even started getting ready yet for the dance. Oh yeah, that was tonight. Tonight of all nights.

I couldn't go tonight. My mind was telling me that I hate myself and that I'm too flawed to even live.

Simply I just rolled up into my blanket, and continued to cry. Slamming my computer shut, my room went completely dark.
I was in a funk. A dark funk that just won't go away, no matter how much I want it to.

My phone then buzzed beside me.

7:23

Alex: Am I picking u up still?

Ignored.

I slammed my phone back down on my bedside table, and went back to thinking about all the things that I've ever done wrong. All of those things that went back so long ago.
Even the stuff I did in middle school came back to mind.

Another buzz.

I forced myself to look at it.

7:55

Alex: Where r u? The dance starts in 5 mins!

Ignored once more.

"Shut up Alex" I mumbled in my pillow as I wiped some tears away.

I was such a baby. A little wimp! I haven't cried so much in a long time.
And I hate it. I hate crying so much. I hate being weak.

I hate a lot of things.

Another buzz.

Ignored before I even looked to see who it was. My friends were probably just telling me how much fun they were having already, and that I was missing out!

Those jerks...

I paused and questioned my thoughts though. Where they jerks? Or was I mistaking them for the people online?

Quickly I picked my phone up to look at it.

Meghan.

Meg:Dude seriously, where are you? Lani is literally so upset. Hurry up and get here!!

Denied.