Unwanteds High (AU)

Chapter 39

Chapter 39

((Samheed's POV))

I always said that high school was a living hell. A place where you had classes with zero of your friends, and a crappy teacher to try and tell you the ways of geometry.

High school, in the reality of it all, is all about feeling like you're moving in a fast-moving train.

Ever since the beginning of this year, I feel like I've been constantly going and not stopping. Freshman me would look at me now and think I'm so cool. A basketball player on the varsity team. A guy with a lot of friends now. A guy who can drink at parties and have no one question him.

But why does it feel like I'm drowning with going that fast?

Why am I growing up so quickly?

Staring up at the ceiling, it was 4:57 a.m. I had to get up for school at 6:30. I knew I wasn't getting any sleep though. I'm used to only running on coffee anyways.

The tears had stopped a while ago. They were now dried on my cheeks as I stared blankly up at my dark, bedroom ceiling.

Lani wasn't my girlfriend anymore.

It was so... so hard to believe. One minute I'm having the time of my life with her dancing in the sprinklers. The next, I'm being forced out of her house forever by her angry father.

If I could go back in time to just fix one mistake, that would be it. I would stop myself from ever thinking going to that party was a good idea. I would shake myself by the shoulders while screaming that I should never go to a party with drinks ever again.

Looking cool and being cool are two different things. I may have looked cool with a red solo cup in hand laughing with my basketball friends, but I was nowhere cool to force Lani into all of this.

This is all my fault. This had been my idea. Why do I always destroy everything I touch?

Why do I never get my own happily ever after?

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"Samheed, stay after for a second," Ms.Morning said to me as I passed her desk. "I'll write a note to your second period teacher that I kept you behind."

The bell had rung as students made their way out of the classroom. This morning, Meg had been supportive after I had shut down in the car after the Haluki house incident last night. She had gone over to me, hugged me from behind, and gave a sisterly kiss to my cheek without a word before going to her desk. She knew I didn't want to talk right now. That's what I love about her. Meg always knew the right thing to do.

Meanwhile, the news about everything that happened last night hadn't been told to Alex yet. He came in with two cups of coffee in his hands. He had gone to the coffee shop I suppose this morning. He had tried to be all happy with me, but I still remembered his frown after I just grumbled a thanks and nothing else.

So, there I stood. Half a cup of my second coffee of the day in hand, looking down at the stapler on her desk awkwardly as everyone filed out.

"Meg, Alex," I heard her say. "I got this. Go now."

I only looked up slightly to see my two friends frowning in our direction. Meg softly told Alex to "come on", but Alex had a hard time leaving over her. I locked eyes with him, and we stared at each other in understanding. He nodded a little before following her out, leaving Ms.Morning and me alone.

"I may be just a science teacher, but I became a teacher to help my students with any situation they need," she started out with saying. I didn't look her in the eye despite feeling her looking at me.