Should I go? Should I stay? [VIXX LEO/ Jung Taekwoon Fanfic]

Chapter 16| Stuggles

Taekwoon's POV

Balancing school and training is difficult. Now also adding a part time job in order for me to earn some money and survive. I mean I do get allowance, but I would need to save it as well. Omma and Appa set a bank account for me so they could transfer money to my savings and what not.

I miss Yana, sometimes during training especially when it's really difficult I just need to hear her voice. Yes. We do talk on the phone, text and skype but it's not enough. I know she is concentrating on her studies and I don't want to interfere with that as she allowed me to purse my passion in another country.

Also that I am staying loyal to Yana, as she is also doing the same. I know that Adrian, Jessica and herself will look after each other well. Then there's me in school, it's been a little difficult as I have to catch up but what is most annoying; are the girls in my class, grade or other students from other grades. They would try to get my attention but they all clearly know that I am taken, and I will continue to ignore them as they all gave me a bad impression.

The closest friends I have are the ones who I live with in the dorm. Hakyeon, Jaehwan, Wonsik, Hongbin and Sanhyuk. They are cool guys but they can get a little rowdy, even though we are competing against each other it doesn't mean we have to treat each other like sh*t. As we all have specific weaknesses and there is that one person who will help, with that.

As Yana and I still communicate, it is quite difficult as sometimes we are not always available, so the constant missed calls and texts will always come up. I felt bad for ignoring her texts even though I had the slightest chance of answering but chances are that my phone will get taken away if they found out that I was communicating instead of practicing. I have to be honest it is harder than I thought, first I lied to my parents that Yana is not my girlfriend but my tutor, then I lied to the CEO that I didn't have a girlfriend and now I am training, going to school and working a part time job endlessly.

Who knows when I will debut, who knows who I will debut if not solo. I am open to many other opportunities as well but I don't want to assume anything else but to work for debut and to release music.

"So how is your girlfriend?" Hakyeon sat next to me. Currently we are resting at the dorm and most of us are doing homework, "She's doing well, but I feel like she is really pressured with her exams right now," I said. "She must works really hard right?"

"Yes she does, she helped me a lot and I was able to improve with my grades. Yana managed to maintain and improve on her grades as well," I said smiling as I look through the study cards she helped me make. "She's a keeper, but it's hard to hide it and also you have to balance everything else," he said. "I will do my best, but there are times when I should let nature take its course."

"Well I know you'll do really well, I hope it works out for you," He said. "Thank you Hyung," he stood up and left so I could finish the rest of my homework. I decided to text Yana good luck and tell me how you went to her, of course I don't expect her to answer straight away.