Always you - Justin Bieber

Part 13 - "Do you still love me?"

Today has been six months since me and Justin created the song Overboard and he has produced an album which is coming out today! His song 'Baby' attracted the audience the most it has became massive. All the boys hate him but the girls love him I am honestly so proud of him. He is going on Ellen today and I am so happy for him. I haven't spoke to Ryan or Chaz properly since the argument they have tried to apologise but I don't want to see them.

"Hey! Amelia!" Justin shouted running to me and I gave him a small wave. "I have huge news Amelia!" He gasped.

"What is it?" I asked clapping my hands in excitement and he smirked at me causing my face to drop. "What?" I asked more concerned and confused.

"I will tell you and the rest of the world on Ellen" he winked causing me to frown and cross my arms which caused him to hug me. "You will love it" He whispered causing me to hug him back and try fight of the goosebumps as a happy smile came on my face.

"You can't do that!" I gasped "Now I am worried" I pouted he opened his mouth to speak but was interrupted.

"Bieber!" A producer shouted causing me and Justin to both jump and making me chuckle a him being scared.

"What?" He asked innocently.

"Set... Now!" He raised his voice causing me to jump again. Someone is stressed. I could tell Justin was wanting to laugh but I pushed him to the producer as he was led to Ellen and me and Pattie stood at the side of Ellen. 

"I am so proud of him" I said smiling and Pattie nodded hugging me.

"I know you care Amelia, just hang on a little longer before letting go. It is too early yet" She said causing me to nod and sigh. I wish I didn't love him. I feel like he is trying to force himself to love me but he said when he is ready we will try something so he does care right?

"I know" I mumbled.

"So, Justin you said you have an announcement" Ellen said crossing her legs and Justin flicked his hair and nodded.

"Yes I do, I am going on tour" My eyes went wide as Pattie giggled at my reaction. We are going on tour! We'll see around the world! 

Once the interview finished I ran to Justin's dressing room and seen him with no top on but i didn't care or feel awkward so I ran and jumped on him hugging him tight and let out a squeal as he laughed and hugged me back.

"A tour!" I gasped with a smile on his face.

"A world tour" He winked causing me to hug him again. "Tickets come out Friday, so two days" I sighed as he put me down.

"I can't believe this is happening" I giggled and Justin agreed.

"I know" I smiled and hugged him.

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Two days later and Justin was excited about the main one, Madison Square Garden, we was waiting for Scooter to receive a call weather the countries were selling tickets. Justin was worrying incase the tour wouldn't do well and he was just a 'one hit wonder' but I told him he is too talented for that. Scooters phone began to ring and we all sat up and Scooter put it on speaker.

"How is it going?" Scooter asked.

"Most arena's sold out almost immediately. No tickets left" My eyes popped out as I held Justin's hand with mine.

"What about Madison Square Garden?" Scooter said and Justin bit his nail with nerves as it was his dream to sell it out.

"MSG?" The man chuckled causing me to frown. "That sold out in twenty two minutes" Justin put his hands on his head and I gasped and Scooters eyes went wide. Once the conversation ended I jumped up and screamed.

"Justin you did it!" I screamed and he picked me up and I hugged him. 

"I can't believe it!" He gasped.

"This is just the beginning kid" Scooter said playing with Justin's hair causing him to whine and making me chuckle.  Scooter left and it was me and Justin watching a movie.

"What will happen with Ryan and Chaz?" I asked putting a grape in my mouth. "I haven't spoken to them it might be awkward" I sighed and Justin shrugged.

"Fuck them, they weren't there for you they can't expect you to automatically be okay with them leaving you Amelia" Justin sighed and I nodded agreeing with him. "Do you still love me Amelia?" He asked making me choke and go bright red before clearing my throat. 

"I can't see the day I will stop Justin" I sighed "I am so proud of you, I can't put it into words which is the main focus." He nodded. "But, I love you" I whispered. "But I don't think you feel the same, do you?" I asked. There was a long silence, which he appeared to be thinking about it. "I am sure" I swallowed the lump in my throat so my voice wouldn't crack. "I am sure that if you have to think about it, you don't. So I do think I am wasting my time." I sighed and went to stand up for bed. 

"Wait" He mumbled. "Maybe, I could love you eventually, when I am ready for a relationship. Maybe we could both be happy" I shook my head.

"I don't know how long I can live my life on maybe's, you shouldn't either. But I will wait as long as I can because I love you" I smiled weakly "Goodnight Justin" I blew him a kiss and he sadly smiled at me.

Lying in bed I thought about everything. Overthinking. The worst thing that can happen in the human body. Right now I am stuck between 'I care' and 'I don't want to care anymore' also stuck between 'I have every reason to leave' but also 'I want to stay'. Stuck between 'We have been through so much and too much to give up' and 'I have been through enough to know I can't do this anymore'. Stuck in-between 'I don't mind putting up with this bullshit because I love him and we fight' and 'I am getting so sick of repeating and expressing my one way feelings'. Stuck in between ' Things will never be the same again' and 'Maybe things will turn out good again'. Stuck between 'I love him too much to let him go' and 'I am just so done'

With all of these thoughts running through my mind, I ended up falling into a bad sleep of the same pain in my heart that has been there since I became in love with someone who had no expectations of being in love with me.